When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

New Year's approaching,
& I have dedications & confessions to make.


indirectly,
you taught me how to tolerate your ignorance of my presence. you taught me how to smile when I'm broken inside. you taught me how to attract the smallest attention. you showed me the beautiful, and yet the ugly, side of love. most of all, you showed me a mirror of myself.
I thank you for the little things you did that affected my life in various ways. I thank you for the words you didn't say for the fear of hurting me deeply. I thank you for making me grow and become a less dependent person. I thank you, Dixie.
you can blame me for being so ignorant about your actions, blame me for being so naive about the thoughts of a second chance, blame me for being weak; succumbing to your irresistible sweetness. although you were everything to me, & although it's still very hard to let go, I'll still try. yes, I'll try my very best. you moved on, and I shouldn't be left behind like this. I'm almost there, yes, almost there.
:)


at the same time, I want to apologise to someone.
I'm sorry, BengHong. I'm sorry for being indifferent towards you all these time. I'm sorry for hurting you in any way I did. most of all, I'm sorry for being selfish. I've always seen you as a friend of mine, & I've also seen a mirror of myself in you. I apologise, as I finally felt the pain and desperation you felt before. Sorry for everything.
:(


dedicated to my beloveds:

Eelin. you are, and always my goodie-best-friend. I'm able to tolerate your mood swings and jumping of cliques, but yeah. I just want you to let you know that I'm not dead yet so I'll be here whenever you need me <3
Shimin. you are, and shall always stay as my confidante. you'll never be forgotten! love ya :)
Brenda. though all of us changed in various ways, friends are for forever. I miss the good old days we had in the past and still, you're seen as a good friend of mine whom I still care about. :)
Alethia. it seemed to be destined for us to become classmates and yes, I would like to know more more & more about you in the near future! :)
Vanessa. I just love you for being so natural about yourself. stay crazy!
Dalton, Ryan & Gan. my new-found best buddies! let's hope we'll just carry on like this till forever :)
Chrissy. dont be surprised with the appearance of your name, because I think you deserve to be on my list. we click quite well although you bore and irritate me sometimes but yeah. keep breaking and stay cool :)
Dixie. thanks for all the memories. do work hard out there aight! :)
BengHong. hey friend, you're not so bad after all. just grow up and stop joking around. Heh. cheers!
Jamesss. my beloved brother and shall always be. thanks for being there to listen to me that night. I felt so much better and I hope you would be there just like that in the the future as well. I love you! :D


if you aren't included above, and think that you should, don't worry. I haven't forgotten you. just that, those are the people who seem to dominate my life in 2006. I love my friends, all of you.

Thanks for making my life so colourful.
I love you all! <3



P/S:
this entry is kinda late due to my net's problem. pfft. oh well :) here it is, like finally! ciao.