When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

New Year's approaching,
& I have dedications & confessions to make.


indirectly,
you taught me how to tolerate your ignorance of my presence. you taught me how to smile when I'm broken inside. you taught me how to attract the smallest attention. you showed me the beautiful, and yet the ugly, side of love. most of all, you showed me a mirror of myself.
I thank you for the little things you did that affected my life in various ways. I thank you for the words you didn't say for the fear of hurting me deeply. I thank you for making me grow and become a less dependent person. I thank you, Dixie.
you can blame me for being so ignorant about your actions, blame me for being so naive about the thoughts of a second chance, blame me for being weak; succumbing to your irresistible sweetness. although you were everything to me, & although it's still very hard to let go, I'll still try. yes, I'll try my very best. you moved on, and I shouldn't be left behind like this. I'm almost there, yes, almost there.
:)


at the same time, I want to apologise to someone.
I'm sorry, BengHong. I'm sorry for being indifferent towards you all these time. I'm sorry for hurting you in any way I did. most of all, I'm sorry for being selfish. I've always seen you as a friend of mine, & I've also seen a mirror of myself in you. I apologise, as I finally felt the pain and desperation you felt before. Sorry for everything.
:(


dedicated to my beloveds:

Eelin. you are, and always my goodie-best-friend. I'm able to tolerate your mood swings and jumping of cliques, but yeah. I just want you to let you know that I'm not dead yet so I'll be here whenever you need me <3
Shimin. you are, and shall always stay as my confidante. you'll never be forgotten! love ya :)
Brenda. though all of us changed in various ways, friends are for forever. I miss the good old days we had in the past and still, you're seen as a good friend of mine whom I still care about. :)
Alethia. it seemed to be destined for us to become classmates and yes, I would like to know more more & more about you in the near future! :)
Vanessa. I just love you for being so natural about yourself. stay crazy!
Dalton, Ryan & Gan. my new-found best buddies! let's hope we'll just carry on like this till forever :)
Chrissy. dont be surprised with the appearance of your name, because I think you deserve to be on my list. we click quite well although you bore and irritate me sometimes but yeah. keep breaking and stay cool :)
Dixie. thanks for all the memories. do work hard out there aight! :)
BengHong. hey friend, you're not so bad after all. just grow up and stop joking around. Heh. cheers!
Jamesss. my beloved brother and shall always be. thanks for being there to listen to me that night. I felt so much better and I hope you would be there just like that in the the future as well. I love you! :D


if you aren't included above, and think that you should, don't worry. I haven't forgotten you. just that, those are the people who seem to dominate my life in 2006. I love my friends, all of you.

Thanks for making my life so colourful.
I love you all! <3



P/S:
this entry is kinda late due to my net's problem. pfft. oh well :) here it is, like finally! ciao.

went shopping with Mummy @ Vivo City today. she hasn't been there before so yeah apparently we walked around. we merely walked the whole of the 2nd level and we were getting a little giddy because of the !@#$%^&* crowd. like, packed man (because almost every shop is having a storewide sale). we purchased a few clothings and checked out the manicure and pedicure parlours. yupp, got ourselves some plain tees from Giordano. I finally got myself a white long sleeve! Ha!

anyway, I got myself this outfit from Nichii:


Melissa said it looks gothic. naww I don't think so! haha. I dont care. I just love the hoodie top. whee. all hail hoodies. hoodies are like the coolest of the coolest :D can't wait to wear these clothes.



I learnt dance steps of Ben Can Gang Mu (Jay Chou) today. whooo.
ILMUSIC.
ILDANCE.
ILCHINGAY! :]

I feel weird.
is there a hint of..
naw, I hope not.

But why would I feel like this when I'm clear about me having no special feelings towards you?
:/

I'M IN CHINGAY!

watch Chingay 2007 on 24 Febuary 2007 kay :) Singapore Soka Association's (our) item is the last one, which means it should be the best of all other items to get you hyped. stay tuned! :D





You Know My Name - Chris Cornell
If you take a life
Do you know what you'll give?
Odds are, you won't like what it is
When the storm arrives
Would you be seen with me?
By the merciless eyes of deceit?

I've seen angels fall from blinding heights
But you yourself are nothing so divine
Just next in line

Arm yourself because no-one else
Here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You can't deny the prize
It may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die?

The coldest blood runs through my veins
You know my name

If you come inside
Things will not be the same
When you return to the night
And if you think you've won
You never saw me change
The game that we all been playing

I've seen diamonds cut through harder men
Than you yourself
But if you must pretend
You may meet your end

Arm yourself because no-one else
Here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You can't deny the prize
It may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die?

The coldest blood runs through my veins

Try to hide your hand
Forget how to feel
Life is gone with just
A spin of the wheel

Arm yourself because no-one else
Here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You can't deny the prize
It may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die?

The coldest blood runs through my veins
You know my name



ciao.

6L's outing today @ Sentosa!
yeah well, it rained, so the day wasn't according to plan. Phyo had a gloomy look on his face towards the end of the day; he claimed that the rain spoiled his mood. haha *shrugs* oh well. the next outing for us shall be better :] we did some catching up and all. as usual, we joked around. & yeah, plus, Phyo and I started the day off by bickering with each other (as usual). we bicker literally everywhere, even on MSN. Weilei even asked when we could stop. Lol.


yes, we were fooling around @ Palawan beach.


that's us! :D



Recent in my playlist:
Raoul - The Automatic
You Know My Name - Chris Cornell
Straightjacket Feeling - TAAR
Tell Me - P.Diddy ft X'tina Aguilera
LDN - Lily Allen

great songs to check out ;]



I can only confirm whether I'm officially part of the Chingay 2007 tomorrow. yaye. I hope this won't hinder me doing anything when school reopens. *prays hard*

toodles.

I'm finally back, with 44 souveniers from the legendary mosquitoes, a slight sun-burnt nose, red skin, and a body lack of sleep. Hahah.

camp was alright. the trainees were slow and clumsy as usual, but somehow improved a little. the catered food sucked with inedible rice; the fried sausages I fried tasted so much better even on their own :)

I smelt sour-ish when I got home. eewww.
I feel so good back home! :D



FINALLY THERE'S A CLASS OUTING FOR 6L`03 [BLPS]! yes, finally, after 3 frikin years man. yup yupp, I can't wait for Tuesday! :) Phyo's my date! & a silly idiot too. HAHA!

will be away for camp from 15-17 Dec.
will miss my darling lappy :(

I haven't tasted my favourite Pokka Green Tea for soooooooooo long until today. Ah, the feeling is indescribable.



till then, ciao.

YOU SHOULD CATCH HAPPY FEET! :D
I love the Amigo Penguins to bitss & pieces. haha. oh yeah, plus the baby penguins. Heh.

yeah for the past week, I've:
caught Casino Royale,
caught Happy Feet,
changed my earpiece colours,
updated my Friendster profile,
been modifying my Xanga,
lazing around at home,
watching movies on movie channels,
downloaded a handful of themes for my hp,
been eating alot due to boredom (ouch),
& been sleeping till late afternoon.

okay, soon and next I'm gonna:
go on a Harry Potter movie marathon,
watch a few DVDs that my dad bought,
watch teevee,
laze around the house again,
eat eat eat,
& sleep sleep sleep.

what a boring schedule ahead :)



chatted with Fee-Duh-Ooz (Lol I forgot his real spelling) yesterday non-stop from early afternoon till late evening. Ha! we sure do have lots to talk about. almost like the second Mich, but not really at the same time haha. Mich can switch to countless topics, while we only talked bout a few but they lasted very long on that. Hahaha. let's see, we talked about hair styles, school, our future & our obsession over Harry Potter (yes we are super obsessed). if there are more, I can't remember for now. haha. yeah.

FYI, I'M STILL A BIG FAN OF HARRY POTTER OK! hahaa. Order of the Phoenix will be out on July 13th next year! yeah, damn friking far, but yeah time flies so it'll be here in no time ;) the 7th book would most probably be out next year too. whooo. Fee-Duh-Ooz and I were like saying, "It's gonna be a Harry Potter year for us in 2007." Ahaha. Daniel Radcliffe! <33 speaking of which, his hairstyle in the new movie isn't nice at all. plus, HP's hair is supposed to be long, messy and ruffled. he looked like he got out from NS for a few months, with a little shave at the sides, in the OOTP trailers. I miss his old hair. oh yah, if you watched MTV, he appeared once for the promotion of the GOF movie. now THAT hairstyle was hawt. Heh.

Danny ranked first during my primary school days. but sorry, I have to admit, that someone else took up that first place for him now. awww~ I still love him, plus my new number ones! yeah they're James & Oliver Phelps! wheeets. I realised how hot they are since POA. especially in GOF :) I watched the Sorcerer's Stone last night and found out that they're cute without their 'broken' voices. haha. I liked a line Fred said when Molly mixed them up, "Honestly woman, you call yourself our mother." hahaha. & dear Fee-Duh-Ooz thought I liked long-haired guys -.- not true, not true. hahaha.

I think I lost the autographed photos of Danny!! omgomgomg x( yeah I wrote fan mails to him when I was younger. got a problem? Hahaha :D used to be fun. but yeah, it costed me 1 dollar for the stamp lah. eeek. yeah a dollar to me when I was still primary 5 or 6 is quite a sum okay :P

can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait for the upcoming new Harry Potter stuff :D



Amigo penguin:
Aye you jojo, let me tell you something.
Come closer. Closer.
Do you really wanna sing?
Mumble:
Yeah.
Amigo penguin:
You sure?
Mumble:
Yeah.
Amigo penguin:
Very sure?
Mumble:
Yeah!
Amigo penguin:
Okay, then follow everything I say.
Mumble:
Okay.
Amigo penguin:
Did I say "Okay." ?
Mumble:
No(?)
Amigo penguin:
Okay.

HAHAHAHA I TOLD YOU I <333 THE AMIGO PENGUINSSS.

I've got myself a Xanga.

no, not just, but on October 18th. Ha! I gave up on it then because I knew nuts about the functions and all. thankfully, with WanTing and Vanessa's help today, I managed to finish the look of my Xanga! Lol :) anyway, from now on I would be updating both journals now and then. So it's up to you to read either :]

my Xanga!



I just realised:
isn't Xanga a brand name of a slimming product? :D

that just reminds me of Fann Wong.
& Fann Wong reminds me of Christopher Lee.
& Christopher Lee reminds me of his drink-driving hit-and-run accident.
& the accident reminds me of the accident my uncle had met two years back.
& the accident nudges a voice inside me and tells me: Cherish your life now before it's gone before you know it :]



P/S.
it's Xando! not Xanga! Lol :D thanks passerby, haha.

I'm so-gonna get a new life.
get on with it man, Fiona.
seems better that way, yes?
it's pointless to go on like this.

you've done it before,
why not do it again; for good?

Ah,
& that shall be my New-year resolution.



time flies so fast.
it's already December.
OMGOMGOMG.
I'm gonna be sec 4 next year.
I feel old. haha.



I got sick of that floating navigation. it seemed irritating. & I reckon you people think so too. yeah I edited it. though it's so common but, yeah it looks so much better to the eye than before. Ha! :)

I'm in a foul mood today.
so, beware of this entry for it may pull your triger and start ranting like me too. & this aint funny, at all. don't you dare smile.



I just dislike people making me sound like I'm in the wrong when I'm not, or jumping into conclusions about without making clear of what had happened. & when this happens, it irritates me and somehow would result into something else as well.

not once. but TWICE today.

you've changed. I don't know why and I don't wish to know, because I've already known too much for now. you made me sound like as if I'm there to interrupt your life or something. if you feel that way, then I'm so sorry. you made me feel like I'm some nuisance trying to attract your attention. if you meant it that way, I feel even more sorry, yet hurt. just a simple message of concern, and that's what you would give me without a thanks? fine, forget it then. I might would be sorry about this in the future, but for now I feel like saying this: if you meant it as that negative way, fuck it okay. you made me feel like shit and gave me the impression you were cocky while you gave me the message. it's just so-not you to be so impolite.

I might be paranoid.
but that was how I felt;
how you made me feel.


& speaking about this topic, it reminds me of the discussion I had about this with Jayden a few months back.

people, stop being lazy.

see some of those blogskinners out there commenting on certain people's (including mine) blogskins to credit the picture source or brushes? yeah, especially credits to brushes. like, Hello? for most of them, at least they mentioned about the name of the owner or something, not like it's totally not acknowledged. since you're given the name, please be more hardworking and do your own research on the original works yourself. don't sit there, relax and just click away while we put in effort to type an extra fucking bunch of HTML codes to suit your needs.

so yeah one more thing that many bloggers like to do; accusing other blogskinners about the so-called copying of codes. once again, like, Hello? they might somehow got inspired by the blogskin's concept and decided to use the HTML code and modified it a little to suit their own blogskin. anyway if it is somehow really similar to the original work, it should be credited. think again man, if using of other people's codes are copying, then why are some of our blogskins similar in concept but just different in design? wouldn't that be like, the whole world is copying, and only God knows who was the creator of that particular HTML or Java code? that's bullshit. & you people still dare to accuse other people of copying? it's merely a refer and modification. at most just credit the original works. stop making such a big hoo-haa out of nothing; you're just trying to attract attention and project your jealousy. eat this.

yeah.
many people make a big hoo-haa out of this 'cause people always think that normal bloggers like us are wannabes of Mr Brown, Xiaxue, Celeste or whoever fucking so-called 'Celebrities'. like come on! they're peanuts man. who gives a damn about Xiaxue's pinkish blog with a picture of her squat physique, or Celeste's small eyes and washing-board-chest? I know who. yeah, those people. such blogs: they are just for entertainment. Hello? if people somehow got to blog similar like them coincidentally, it aint your problem, so stay out of it.

however, if you're talking about people who has exact blogging style, super-duper-uber-similar blog URLs, exact blog concept, with exact blogskin contents; that's a total different story. they're just plain bullshitters with no originality.


with experience, I express this: it ain't a good feeling for being accused of something which you didn't do wrong.

wanna try?
be my guest.

went shopping with Melissa today at Wisma and The Heerens. met Runie halfway through. he saw me and he was like "Fiona! Fiona!" when I turned and saw him I was like "Heyy~~~~~" and we both started laughing. yeah haha. he said something about a performance this Sunday at the Singapore Youth Center (SYC), which happens to be one of the SSA centers in Singapore. I wonder what event that is. Hmmmmm.

yeah. I bought tops:


I LOVE ROCK MORE THAN I LOVE YOU.
yeah that will take me somewhere.
:D



anyways, new skin!
nice nice? :]
for the floating navigation codes,
kudos to blogskinner Ebullient* :)