When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

Jamie Charmiane Foo Sue Ann (HAHA!) blogged about remembering her first crush in secondary school very clearly. yeah, I do too. I even remember my very first crush in my life as well! haha. reading her post makes me think of that very first crush, like how ignorant we all were back then man.

so yeah, it was in my 2nd kindergarten year. it's this half malay half chinese guy called.. if I'm not wrong, Eddy. Ha! yeah. I just took out the class photo and looked at it. I realised, what the hell was I thinking back then man? all of us were so chubby and all. haha so cute. yeah I think what attarcted was his small eyes, which I still find them rather cute. Ha. that was my one and only crush during then.
Fun fact: my heart would pound non-stop whenever I'm near Eddy. like, so cute can! lol.

so I entered my primary school. I developed this very hugee crush on this guy called Troy Au when I was in primary 3 I think. he's one year my senior, he's in Fuhua Sec now by the way lol. that point of time was really really comical, to come to think of it. I got to know him through my Skipping Club CCA, and yeah he wasn't that popular there like how the rest of the guys were. I think that's what attracted me; his.. isolation? I dunno. Lol. have no idea man. somehow, ironically, a classmate of Troy's developed a huge crush on me at that time as well. yeah, and somehow the whole class knew about it and all of them were like "Eh Mrs something (I forgot his name, let alone his surname, Ha)!" here and there. Hahaha. yeah. my god-sister, Desmy, was from the same class so yeah every recess we would play that famous Crocodile game at the fitness corner with some her class people. uh huh, Troy and that guy happened to be one of them. Ha! they were all teasing me and that guy being husband and wife all that shit, but I only had my eyes on Troy. Lol. anyway nobody knew about my crush on Troy other than Desmy. haha. this crush was one-sided so like, it ended when I was in primary 5 I think.
Fun fact: I secretly took a photo of Troy during last year's visit to my primary school while they were taking their class photo. Ha! dumb.

secondary school had been quite well for me. I've made new friends and all. somehow I offended some people somehow yeah I know about that. well, if they are still mad at me that's their problem. Ha. like, what can I do man. I won't change myself to fit into their world. I would rather change myself for the better and for myself. eat this. yeah so my first crush? let me see.. OH!! KIEFER LEE! haha. this was a super short-lived one. I think I liked him because he liked me at first, which was obvious in his actions; sitting next to me voluntarily, and walking towards me when Eelin told him "Mrs Lee called you." Lol. yeah naughty girl. and like, I broke his heart in the end lah. so sad :( puppy love, yeah you know, the stupid things that little kids would do.
Fun fact: Mr Kiefer Lee was the first crush to hold my hand. Ha! I reckon you didn't know that haha.



All I do now it just look back and laugh at those ignorant choices I made. as long as I don't repeat the same mistakes I made, everything would be fine. I'm so glad I'm moving on well :)

IMDCYP <3

so who's your first crush in your life, and your first crush in the different stages of your life? it's fun catching up with yourself :) leave comments, don't tag. Heh.