When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

Suddenly, everything seems so fucking contradicting.

Everyone hopes that their long-waiting doesnt go down the drain. so do you. what about me? I feel the same way too. is life out there to play with us like how we all play with dolls? I wonder.

Jamie Charmiane Foo Sue Ann (HAHA!) blogged about remembering her first crush in secondary school very clearly. yeah, I do too. I even remember my very first crush in my life as well! haha. reading her post makes me think of that very first crush, like how ignorant we all were back then man.

so yeah, it was in my 2nd kindergarten year. it's this half malay half chinese guy called.. if I'm not wrong, Eddy. Ha! yeah. I just took out the class photo and looked at it. I realised, what the hell was I thinking back then man? all of us were so chubby and all. haha so cute. yeah I think what attarcted was his small eyes, which I still find them rather cute. Ha. that was my one and only crush during then.
Fun fact: my heart would pound non-stop whenever I'm near Eddy. like, so cute can! lol.

so I entered my primary school. I developed this very hugee crush on this guy called Troy Au when I was in primary 3 I think. he's one year my senior, he's in Fuhua Sec now by the way lol. that point of time was really really comical, to come to think of it. I got to know him through my Skipping Club CCA, and yeah he wasn't that popular there like how the rest of the guys were. I think that's what attracted me; his.. isolation? I dunno. Lol. have no idea man. somehow, ironically, a classmate of Troy's developed a huge crush on me at that time as well. yeah, and somehow the whole class knew about it and all of them were like "Eh Mrs something (I forgot his name, let alone his surname, Ha)!" here and there. Hahaha. yeah. my god-sister, Desmy, was from the same class so yeah every recess we would play that famous Crocodile game at the fitness corner with some her class people. uh huh, Troy and that guy happened to be one of them. Ha! they were all teasing me and that guy being husband and wife all that shit, but I only had my eyes on Troy. Lol. anyway nobody knew about my crush on Troy other than Desmy. haha. this crush was one-sided so like, it ended when I was in primary 5 I think.
Fun fact: I secretly took a photo of Troy during last year's visit to my primary school while they were taking their class photo. Ha! dumb.

secondary school had been quite well for me. I've made new friends and all. somehow I offended some people somehow yeah I know about that. well, if they are still mad at me that's their problem. Ha. like, what can I do man. I won't change myself to fit into their world. I would rather change myself for the better and for myself. eat this. yeah so my first crush? let me see.. OH!! KIEFER LEE! haha. this was a super short-lived one. I think I liked him because he liked me at first, which was obvious in his actions; sitting next to me voluntarily, and walking towards me when Eelin told him "Mrs Lee called you." Lol. yeah naughty girl. and like, I broke his heart in the end lah. so sad :( puppy love, yeah you know, the stupid things that little kids would do.
Fun fact: Mr Kiefer Lee was the first crush to hold my hand. Ha! I reckon you didn't know that haha.



All I do now it just look back and laugh at those ignorant choices I made. as long as I don't repeat the same mistakes I made, everything would be fine. I'm so glad I'm moving on well :)

IMDCYP <3

so who's your first crush in your life, and your first crush in the different stages of your life? it's fun catching up with yourself :) leave comments, don't tag. Heh.

Singapore Navy advertisement says:

If your life is a movie, will it be a good one?

mine isn't a movie. mine's like the infamous Korean/Taiwanese drama series. not like My Girl or My Lovely Samsoon. It's like those teary, super long and draggy ones. yeah, the ones that I hate the most. Naw, I don't hate my life. I love it. I'm merely watching my own drama and just going by, just like that.

Fiona, you gotta be strong! :)



MCR's The Black Parade album rocks big time. Anyone who has the album lend me kay? :) here are my fave tracks.

my all-time fave:
I Don't Love You


I love this track's guitar arrangement & lyrics:
Famous Last Words


another one's Kiss Before She Goes.
I love this track's lyrics.
it's not available on radio blog. aww.

and of course, the one on the billboards:
Welcome To The Black Parade




Give it up for ROCK!
Rock is Love.
yeah go get me T-shirt that prints that phrase :)

hmmm, maybe along with my fave bands:
MUSE
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
BREAKING BENJAMIN
30 SECONDS TO MARS

Heh :D



Casino Royale today with Hazel.
ciao.

CTSS Prom was a blast.
reached home at around 12am plus. yeah and my eyes hurt from the removal of eyeliner and mascara. oww. oh well, I still had fun, playing with helium and all that shit. Hahaha :D

sooo yeah Revo was putting on make-up at Park Mall. & presenting to you...

Jamie Charmaine Foo Sue Ann & Teo Rui Wen Fiona.
LOL :D



and lastly, of course, the 13th nominee for Prom King:


yeah, Jian De won the title of Prom King yesterday night! Haha. suave, he was; all black. Lol. didn't get much photos taken as I was really tired, and the crowd was like woah and all. it's so weird, yet so cool, to see the guys out of their uniforms and in formal attire. the girls were all in gowns and they look really good. Hah. I wonder how the Prom for my batch would be like, huh? :]




two loads off :)
ciao!

2 words to describe my week.
Busy & tired.
SJAB, Dance, and the cycle repeats.
My second toe is blistering (oww).
I'm so fucking tired.

& Monday's coming..



I can't wait for the Prom.
yet I'm nervous.

Scared. :/

a conversation at dance practice today:

Melvin: (browsing my MP3 player)
Eeee, you got Tata Young's song.
Fiona:
Yah?
Melvin:
How does the song go? I only know there's this 'El-Ninyo!' thing.
Fiona:
(Sings) "You've got my temperature rising like.."
Melvin:
(High pitched) "EL-NI-NYO!"
Everyone: (that means Mel, Darren, Runie and I)
*LAUGHED OUT LOUD*
Melvin: (smiles)
Everyone knows Tata Young for her tata's.
Fiona:
Huh? (thinking: tata's?)
Darren: (seems to understand)
Uh.. Hurh hurh, not funny..
Runie: (seems to understand after awhile)
*stares at Melvin* Eh, like, Pamela Anderson can win, you know?
Melvin:
*laughs*
Fiona: (finally understood)
OHH! Tata's, I see. You know what? The first thing I thought of when you said tata's, was tartar sauce.
Mel, Run, Darren:
*ROFLMAO-ED*
Fiona:
What, really mah. Like, you pronounced it like: TA-TA-SSS.
Melvin:
Hello? Of course you all have two, so it's TA-TA-SSS right? Oh, unless you got only one? *Starts to laugh again*
Fiona:
Hey, you know that this movie (the one with the kungfu guy fighting with the cow), I watched the trailer and there's this lady who has this one big tata and the guy was like looking at it lah!
Three of them:
*looks at Fiona*
Fiona: (looks back at them)
Really what.
Melvin:
Runie is sick. He understands me.
Runie:
Eh, but really Pamela Anderson's are huge lah.
Fiona:
You know normal people show the top cleavage? Pam shoes the bottom one. They look like they're gonna just drop out any time. Ha!
Runie: (giggles)
The silicon too heavy.
Melvin: (does the action of saggy boobs)
Old grandma.

Ahhhahaaa!



I want a MacBook.
Black one.
$1499! Awwww.
That'll have to wait :(

had been so busy and tired from the BNCO course. trainees were so slow and all, but they're improving and I'm glad for that :) just hope things could get better so I would lose any enery unnecessarily. Heh. yeah it's so early in the morning now. okay, I'll get to sleep after this post kay? I really wanna blog this. Haha!



Chrissy Poo and I were discussing about chilling out at an ice cream shop, Daily Scoop, somewhere around next week and he told me about going to the US this coming Friday or Saturday. so obviously, an immediate answer from me was for him to get a gift from me. yeah, since it was Christopher Foo Ce Xiang I'm talking about, things somehow got a little.. hilarious. Hah.

C:
If you wanna go, go before next fri. I'm going to the u.s then
F:
Ohh! Get me a gift kay! (;
C:
Nah.
F:
>=( Idiot.
C: (after an hour or so)
Whoo. I just came back from daily scoop. Had a waffle for staff price.
F:
You're making me hungry for ice cream.
C:
Mm ice cream.
F:
You're rubbing it in real good dude.
C: (after half an hour or so)
Yep. Mm waffle.
F:
It's like an hour past and I think it's your stomach that's doing the talking. Ha.
C:
Hello Fiona. This is mr tummy speaking. How are you.
F:
Hello Chrissy Poo. I'm fine, thank you.
C:
Ok very funny. Seriously now after i ate i went to the gym and went on a little adrenaline overdrive from a combination of sugar and while watching survivor. I always get a little nutty after that.
F:
Well, it's not surprising for me to get nutty at this of the night because it comes naturally for me.
C:
From where
F:
From.. Deep inside. Lol. (I said something else which I forgot haha)
C:
Whatever
F:
Aww, Chrissy Poo is angry.
C:
Haha. I assume you really don't want anything from the states.
F:
Hey! Not fair. You said no earlier! That's blackmailing.
C:
Heh heh.
F:
You don't heh heh me. I swear I'll love you forever. LOL. Love. Friend.
C:
Yucks now how exactly does that make me wanna get you something? Ha.
F:
Uh, don't know. Lol. It just came into my mind. Nutty.
C:
Nuts to you. I'll get you a thong.
F:
Lol. Do you even know my size?
C:
Yea. Extra large!
F:
Lol whatever. Anyway thongs disgust me.
C:
Why do they disgust you?
F:
The way it stuffs up the arse. Whoo x(
C:
Well thats why its sexy cause it shows the arse and has minimal coverage. And it isn't painful. It doesnt go all the way in unless you pull it up, which in that case even I can't help stupidity. Lol
F:
LOL. Whatever, I just don't like it.
C:
I'll get myself one if you get one. You won't know if you don't try. Ha logically it should be the cheapest piece of clothing right? Cause its the tiniest.
F:
Don't know. Haha. Okay, get me something else other than the thong.
C:
Ok a matching bra.
F:
Now what's with you and under garments? LOL.
C:
Dunno got the idea from my friends. I'll see if theres anything nice for ya. At St Monica, its sort of a rebel town where everybody has their own fashion and style. And theres alot of dancers too. So over there i'll keep an eye out.
F:
Hahaha that sounds better, aight.
C:
Make sure you wear than thong though. I hate to see money go to waste. Oh yeah i heard the accessories there were good as well.
F:
Haha! OKAY.. Uhm, don't get me any hippie stuff.
C:
Thats so last season la. Its now indie stuff. Very unique. Oh and about my part..i guess i need to wear a thong too?
F:
Yeah duh.
C:
Dang. I was hoping you forgot. Anyway nights!

that was long, yet... yeah man.
Hahaha.

Chris, you better get me something else other than under garments. I don't care if they're sexy or not. -tongue out-



okay, nighty! :D

these are the songs that make the top of my chart and the ones that you might hear playing over and over again for a few times in my MP3 player. Heh. support good bands! :) check them out if you would.

Title: New Born
Artist: Muse

Why: Cool guitar background. Fathomless lyrics. Plus, my fave fave fave fave band! :D
Fave:
& the bitterness inside
Is growing like the new born
When you've seen, seen
Too much, too young, young
Soulless is everywhere

Title: White Lines & Red Lights
Artist: Between The Trees
[ URL can't be found on radio blog :( ]
Why: Music arrangement & lyrics!
Fave:
We are in each others' arms
Just like a movie scene
& as we're leaning in
The lights decide to turn clean
Being with you together
This is getting better
I don't want just red lights
I want more of these nights
Baby, I love you!

Title: Over My Head (Cable Car)
Artist: The Fray

Why: Music arrangement & lyrics.
Fave:
& suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless

Title: Smack That
Artist: Akon ft. Eminem

Why: The bass.
Fave:
I feel it down and cracked now (ooh)
I see it dull and backed now
I'm gonna call her
Than I pull the mack down
Money no problem
Pocket full of that now

Title: Welcome To The Black Parade
Artist: My Chemical Romance

Why: The piano and lyrics.
Fave:
Someday you'll grow up
Would you be the saviour
Of the broken, the beaten and the damned

Title: Zips
Artist: T.M. Revolution

Why: I love the guitar! Most importantly, IT'S JAPANESE! Haha, and the way the singer sang the song; can you feel the mixture of emotions he used? It's a soundtrack from Gundam Seed by the way :)

Title: She Is
Artist: [ I don't know :/ ]

Why: A soundtrack from a Korean drama series, My Lovely Samsoon. This is my all-time-fave and yes, the show is nice too! I'm not a Korean drama fan btw, so this is my recommendation, and this choice is a good one. Heh :)

Title: So Contagious
Artist: Acceptance

Why: The guitars!
Fave:
When you're around me I'm predictable
Cos I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to
To take a hold of you

Title: I'm Too Sexy
Artist: Right Said Fred

Why: Yeah! Old school! Hahaha. It's so classic okay.
Fave:
I'm too sexy for my land
Too sexy for my land
New York and Japan

Title: Gimme That
Artist: Chris Brown

Why: The bass beats of the song.
Fave:
Slow all the traffic down to a complete stop
Cause you speaking that slang that I talk

Title: It Ends Tonight
Artist: The All-American Rejects

Why: Music arrangement and lyrics. Plus, my fave band! :)

Title: Passion
Artist: Utada Hikaru

Why: Japanese. yeah, well, reminds me of someone too. Hah.




wow, that's a bunch :)
but there's more of course.
Haha.

destress from stress. yaye.

stay tuned for the photo-filled post!

there's something I have to rant here, just for the sake of ranting. don't read it, it would be a waste of your time. if you read it, it's your problem if you wanna approach me to talk about it; I won't entertain you. I told you not to read it already. so don't. oh yes, don't bitch about me either; you'll just end up in hell. peace.
I FEEL PRESSURE. PRESSURE! SJAB is like catching up and all. everything isn't going according to plan and all. frustrating to even think about! I have my second thoughts about Revo. I guess if this goes on, I might not be able to handle it next year. SueAnn doesnt know how to handle the crew well because she's not stern and crude enough to order people around. that's what a leader should be doing; assign people to do something and correct all the mistakes. she's just being too soft on the members and kept talking about the welfare and all. Hey, if you guys wanna make it big, put in the effort and be the bad person all the time! MOREOVER, Sue is going to Australia for her college studies in January. that means the leadership of Revo would have to be passed down to one of the members. I'm telling you, if I were to take up that post, I'll die. Why? you ask me why? I'll tell you why. There is a 99% tendency that I would be given my school's SJAB Chairperson position as well. no, I won't accept one of these, and that would be (sorry, but) Revo-tia. CCA and studies are more important than dance for my life now. NOW, get it? I'm not free yet! if you people think that you have all the time in the world then so be it, it's not my business! I have my restrictions and I don't care if you have everything you want in your life okay. SHOO.
& FYI, THIS IS UNLIKE THE STUPID BITCHING PARAGRAPH OF THE FAGGOT BENJAMIN FOO. HE'S A DISGRACE TO THE GAY COMMUNITY MAN. COWARD. WIMP. BULLSHITTER CRITIC.

wow, I feel so much better.



sometimes, I just feel like sleeping at home.
but I couldn't sleep at all.
sometimes, I just wanna stay at home.
but there's nothing to do, nothing to watch.
sometimes, I just feel like going out.
but there's nowhere for me to go.

Fuck it all.



the photos aren't here yet, so wait.

it's Mama's birthday today! :D


went to Raffles Town Club's Japanese restaurant with Marilyn's family. I have no idea why my dad ordered like, 25 Tempuras!!? LOL. I saw the fried prawns and my appetite went down a little. Haha. I didn't touch any of them though, but I ate at least three Temakis and Makis each. Ahh, as long as I make the point that I ate alot of rice, did I make it? :]



it's been very long since I've met Marilyn and all. they're still the same, haha. yeah we were all talking about lotsa stuff. our mothers were talking about the new drama series be it HK or Korean ones. our fathers were talking about tea at one moment, then the right-left brain issue the next. while the adults were having their rather small talks about certain issues, Marilyn, Carine, Melissa and I had a rather big talk about almost everything! Hahahaha. okay. yeah. I can only remember the dinner today really made me feel bloated. Ugh, no Tempuras for now.

oh, I forgot to mention.
WE HAD A TIRAMISU CAKE! :D


ta-da for tonight.




it's been LONG since the last update. Ahhaha. had been busy with SJAB, as well as O2Jamming. Lol. it relieves stress for me, yeah. funny. whatever. I expect a lot of photos for the next post! I haven't receive all of the photos from Alethia and Eelin so you have to wait :D Alethia's were taken on Friday, the last day of the extra lessons, while Eelin's are the random photos that Jo, her and I took on Thursday, the day before. you should anticipate funny and retarded stuff. Hah. till then, toodles! :]

it was all a misunderstanding.
I'm glad it's over; for this misunderstanding. I dont really care much about the other one. as long as the unnecessary disputes are solved, it's good enough. yeah, hope it's for the best.

Sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
& I've hurt myself
By hurting you

she should dedicate this to him :]



how funny it is.
I had been dying to see you and all.
but when it happens, there's nothing I could do.
what. the. hell. is. this.

Sometimes I wanna call ya
But I know you won't be there



suddenly I just feel so pressurized.
work from St john;
dance practices from Revo;
extra lessons for this week (which I dont feel like going at all).

when I'm worked up, NEVER tell me: chill ya.
you're just making situations worse aight.

this is when I will be rather irritating and bossy. so beware alright. so here I am warning you about my temper so stop bitching about me if you were. lalala. go away. I'm super random for times like these. don't complain.

Restlessness.

maybe I just got super worked-up when people talk to me with improper English or giving me the "Oh-I'm-so-helpless" attitude. FWAHH. I'm over-sensitive? I don't think so, if you are someone like me. like what? don't ask. I won't tell you anyway. (SEE, I TOLD YOU I'M RANDOM NOW)

Just stop pressuring me
You make me wanna scream



I guess I need sometime to myself.
I just realised how occupied I am to not even sit down to keep myself company for awhile in solitude. sorry Dad, for not taking your advice. yeah I'm now being tortured by Time itself. I feel like withdrawing from everything. I guess it's too late for now.

after all these.
I'm going to terminate the less important ones.



ahhhhhhh.
97ILY! <3

I went on a "Major Manga Download Marathon", and now I'm going on a "Major Manga Reading Marathon". reading DN Angel right now and finishing. Hazel's gonna bring her animes over this Thursday, including DNA! wooot. yeah upcoming mangas waiting for me to read are Spiral, Kingdom Hearts, Tsubasa, and Battle Royale. I'm considering whether to download One Piece, because there's like 400 over chapters! like Hiro said, "Can cry man.." Lol. I love Japanese, but somehow hate them because they draw manga characters so nicely that they would never be real. Awwwww! x(

yeah so my life now is like school, manga, dance, and SJAB. boring. yeah, I thought so. blah! I don't want to go to school for those lessons even though they're held in the Launch Pad with air-conditioners. Fwahhh. SJAB & dance will be taking up most of my days for the weeks to come. CTSS Prom is like 3 weeks away, and somehow half of me is excited while the other half is anxious. excited because it would be performing in front of my schoolmates, but anxious because I'm afraid of certain internal problems within the crew. Hope all goes well! *fingers crossed*

if I were to take up a third language,
it'll either be Japanese or French.
hooo :D



all the best to those having O's.
study hard all!
<3

late post!
yeah, just to post up the pictures taken on 1st and 2nd November. the Wild Party and BBQ. tra la la.

1st November:

Eelin and I looked like clones. white shirt with a black tank inside, Adidas shoes, black totes, along with waxed hair. just that our necklace and bottoms are different. Ahahhaa. I personally dislike clones on the streets and I told El that. yeah as usual she's like "Who cares!" Ha. okay, if you had just read this junk, you had just spent 10 seconds of your life on nonsense :D

2nd November:

the picture of Van, El, Jyu and me wouldn't be so blur if Beng Hong was a better photographer! Ahahaha :X our jump shot is cute. haha. you wouldn't want to see the failed ones! retarded. Lol.

yeah that's all for the photos.



yaye! Muse and Breaking Benjamin are on the Power98 Top 30. wheee. I'll keep voting. you should do that too! support good bands :)



once again, I had a dumb dream last night/this morning again. it is too dumb! no, not about Dixie; someone else. Ahh! I don't know whether to laugh at it, or ponder about it. they say we dream about what/who we think about, and I'm so-not gonna say what the dream is. OMGOMG. Lol. I am going nutty nuts very soon.

what the hell.

Between The Trees!
great band. but dont spoil it like how people spoil Snow Patrol's songs. yeah I'm glad Muse and Breaking Benjamin aren't touched yet :) good people listen and apprciate good music. yeahhh.



A- You like to curse alot.
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- Damn good kisser
F- People adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly
L- you live to have fun.
M-one to have fun
N- You are dead sexy.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fcukin Crazy
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best damn bf/gf anyone one could
Z- You are always ready

So FIONA TEO RUI WEN is:
People adore you, You have a fine ass, You are one of the best in bed, You are dead sexy, You like to curse alot, You're loyal to those you love, Damn good kisser, Fcukin Crazy, You really like to chill, You are very broad minded.

this makes me sound like one horny arse, seriously. not even counting my full name, FIONA itself sounds horny already. Ahahhaa. ah well, just for entertainment. Lol. yeah so the conclusion:

Fiona is adored by people and she has a fine ass too. She is one of the best people to fuck with and she's dead SEXY. However, be careful of her foul words :)

HAHAHA :D



L + L = DIAMOND
DEESEE = DIAMOND!
Lol. some inside joke between me & Dixie.

D: EH!
F: BEE!
D: huh?? BEE? ... buzz buzz~
F: you say EH, I say BEE, then you should say SEE! lol get it?
D: uhh.. ure lame. haaha take care of your leg. get well soon (:
F: huh? what's with my leg?
D: hahha.. you wols girl. you're lame, so must take care of your leg.
F: EH. walao.
D: BEE!
D: SEE! come see what see?? hahahh :P
F: COPY. LOL.

Retarded. Ahahhaa.
<3



party @ Joanne's place later. it's been soooo long since I've taken a picture of myself. Lol. okay, hopefully would have some today. ha. ciao.