When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

there were piles and piles of dead brown leaves along the pathway outside the condominium. suddenly, when I was walking down the pathway back home, I thought about the Furbolls (DON'T ASK ME ABOUT THE NAME). Ahhahaha, yeah I thought about the good old days we used to have back in the primary school days.

it was always the four of us; Farhana, Nadia, Dhiya, and me. haha, yeah we are the Furbolls (& IT WAS FARHANA WHO CHOSE THE NAME). yes, as you might have noticed, they're all non-Chinese and I'm the only one. I felt so much happier with them. when I was sorta isolated, from my so-called ex-best-friend and her new clique back then, I joined them for some class project and we started hanging out since then. I just cannot describe how much happier I was back then with them. though we had some conflicts now and then, but they were all minor matters. I felt so restricted whenever I was with my all-Chinese clique because I was there witnessing all the backstabbing and stuff; horrible. on the other hand, I felt more free with Farhana and friends because they're just so open about amost anything. we joke about anything and everything, we did homework together, yeah and all that jazz.

we invented some games to entertain ourselves during after school hours like Comedian, and a so-called game which is something like Let's-see-who-steps-on-the-most-crunchiest-dead-leaves. hahaha, yeah that's why for the starting of dead brown leaves along the pathway. sure enough I was stepping on crunchy leaves, as I was thinking about those times.



Jeslyn used to be my best-friend in primary school, since primary 3. we were prefects back then, and yeah. we were just those kind like two-girl-clique thing. well, nothing good lasts long, so eventually things took a turn when we entered primary 5; the year we all got streamed into different classes, like how the secondary 3 did. & yeah, we started to drift as she thought she had found another clique which is much cooler, just because they behave more maturely. Ha, thinking about it, my FOOT. you wanna know why they think they're mature? because... are you ready for this? okay, because, they think knew about what SEX really is; how to do it, how do the female and male private parts look like, and they act like as if the topic is nothing to them but deep inside they are just so damn curious and hungry for more. yeah, CHILDISH eh? so yeah, soon enough, the guys in that clique began to surf porn sites. we were primary 6 then. like, wow can? primary 6 and you're surfing porn on the net already. and yeah, there was once I asked Jeslyn what were they discussing about that made them seem so excited and all. ya know what she said? she said, "Oh, you don't need to know. You're not mature enough. -smiles-" thinking about it, I thhink I should have just told her to GROW UP LAH! like seriously, when I think about it, I asked, "Who's the immature one?" I don't blame them :] they were ignorant then; just trying to act mature, but they're so-not.

Jeslyn seemed like she was the best-friend, ya know? but yeah, I'm glad we split up back then. otherwise, I would be an Ah-lian by now. -shudders-

& oh, what about the boys who surfed porn? yeah, the boys turned themselves in in the end because the school tracked down the porn sites and yeah. Integrity, whoo.



speaking about Jeslyn makes me think about Eelin.
& I really don't want history to repeat itself.
just why am I so uptight about my girlfriends? ah, now that's a good question, why? I don't know. I'm not those kind who will die without a friend by their side. it's like, what would you do & how would you feel, if your best-friend (or you thought to be) starts to drift away from you because he/she found another person/clique to hang out with & doesn't really care much about you? yeah, that feeling. difficult to put that in words but yeah, just like that.



oh yeah, Nadia used to be the tallest in the our clique back then. the very last time I met them, I was like the tallest. yes! a head taller than all of them. haha :]

I miss you girls,
where are you now?
<3



we pretend not to see each other.
I did it for my reason,
why did you do that for, may I ask?

I'm starting to miss the times when we laughed together, side by side. Damn everything. Awwwww! :(