When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

i dont understand why people are crazy over the song Unfaithful by Rihanna. firstly, the song doesnt make sense. secondly, the song isnt touching like what they said. lastly, she sings a little off-tune in the song itself. so yeah. i dont get it why it's in the billboards on radio! OMG.

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Warning: Serious Ranting.

i just realised how fragile true friendships are. we take ages to build the trust among one another, but everything can be broken in a second, by a major or even a minor matter.
true friends dont keep things from one another. you tell each other anything, frankly.
true friends dont backstab one another. they voice them out.
true friends help one another improve themselves. not making them feel bad.
true friends dont lie to one another. they just dont.

i talk to you because i treat you as my real friend.
you just wont listen to me.
you think that im condemning you.
you dont want to listen, because everything's crude.
but hey, everything has to be crude between us.
you need to be crude to solve problems.
ever since the beginning of the year, you drifted even further.
that lady asked me "where's your best friend?"
i hesitated. can you believe it?
i couldnt believe that i actually hesitated.
that lady asked again "she's your best friend right?"
i stared at her.
i was so upset.
i almost cried that instant.
and im glad i didnt.
i cannot let anyone know about this.
its so embarrassing, to have such a friend whom you care for, who doesnt care for you as much as you did.
i began to smile lesser day by day.
people thought i was sick, tired.
i wasnt.
i was hurt.
nobody knows.
so i decided to find something that i really love.
and yes, it cheered my up a little; dance.
it added spice into my life and all.
but everything's out of school.
i still need someone from school.
yes i have friends. a wide circle of them, more than yours.
in school, outside. wherever around Singapore.
but they are just friends. maybe a few that are true.
but where's the real true friend i thought i used to have?
i thought theres one friend whom i can trust, but that one was a fucking hypocrite.
i thought theres another one whom i can confide in, but that one's a fucking 38.
i thought theres another one whom i can really connect, but that one has a fucked up attitude.
everything's fucked up ever since last mid-year.
and yeah, it's all fucking stressful for me to handle alone.
you think it's easy being the moderator? the mediator?
i need all the time and courage to hush everything.
i need all the time and courage to voice out to you guys.
you just take me for granted, and yeah, im getting used over and over again.
yeah i did it willingly, and yes, i dont ask for anything much in return.
i just need your fucking so-called conscience, to know who's the person helping you understand everything thats happening to you. be it me or whoever. like, you guys dont give a damn. like, you just take everything for granted.
i earn my rewards, but you just get what you want.
do you feel good? yeah, for that moment ONLY.
you just dont listen. you dont understand anything.
you wont pay attention to anything, except for the things/ppl you like.

where's the sense in youth nowadays?

like, why did everything turn out this way?
theres just something missing.

no, i dont need a boyfriend.
i need a real friend.

*DISCLAIMER:
I DONT NEED YOUR FUCKING CRITICISMS FOR THIS POST. I AM FRUSTRATED AND UPSET SO I WRITE WHATEVER'S ON MY MIND. SO, IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY, TALK TO ME IN PERSON AND NOT TAG. FUCKING BUGGERS WONT BE ENTERTAINED, AND I SHALL NOT REPEAT.

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dont make me feel all down again.
can everything just return to normal again?