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Saturday, June 10, 2006

Bitching Moment:
i seriously have the urge to bitch about some people, right now. so please excuse the crude, explicit, and broken language if they're somehow present.

#1:
you are just ruining it all. ALL, i say. once you came in, two of my bestest buds began to drift away from the clique. and what else? you three seemed to influence one another and now the both of them have changed into someone else whom me and my other bud dont even feel that we know them anymore. why must you do this? yeah i know you're cute sometimes and all. however, you dont have real friends do you? i have the impression that you take her as your bestest friend on earth. have you ever asked yourself if it was true? you think it's like a 'woah' thing whenever you're with her. you're fickle-minded and she doesn't like it. she is fickle-minded too. i guess it is like friends like friends, huh? bullshit. i dont know what you guys are up to. i just cannot shake off the feeling that the drifting in between the clique doesn't only concern the ones in it, but somehow you are involved as well. everything changed when you interrupted us. why? i dont dislike you, and i dont hate you. i still see you as a friend of mine. but why are you doing this? so you say, or grumble, or complain, saying that you will be the outcast if you tag along, to her. so she gave in to you. did you know what happened? did you? have you even thought about it? i know she's like your oh-so-honey-goodie friend, whatever. mind you, she used to have her own friends, and you are taking her away from them. dont you think you are selfish? even the outsiders can see that im walking alone. i am really disappointed in you, both of you, three of you, in this aspect. im disappointed in myself that i dont have the courage to tell this right at your face and settle it all, and just blogging everything here anonymously. why? because i know you. i know you, alright. i know what will happen. see, at least i thought about the consequences. have ever thought of the outcomes of whatever you do? have you? im such a failure at handling these kind of people like you, giving me a hard time. im already, and still treating you as a good friend of mine and im not even making sound to you about this, what else do you want? take them away? good luck in doing so then, i dont care. if you are really that desperate to do this for a real friend, i say go ahead. im saying my rights of having someone taking away my best buds, and not portraying any jealousy. my conscience is super fucking cyrstal clear. is yours as clear as mine?

#2:
ive talked to you my dear. i really tried. but why haven't you shown any improvement at all? and yet you still complain about my attitude towards you? im very disappointed in you. im very disappointed in myself as well, for not being strong enough to be able to persuade you. why? so i guess you think whatever you are doing is right, and you know what you are doing? fine, so be it. the point is, did you ever heed my advices, and thought about them? i am really upset about it. i plucked up all my courage to approach you and talked to you about it and what do i get? backstabbed. i wasnt condemning you, i wasnt insulting you or criticising you, at all! i was trying to help you, my friend! if you didnt mean so much to me, i would not even have thought of talking to you already. dont you think so? im a really straightforward person and i tell you the things you're obviously doing wrong and i expected you to change. why must you do this to me, disappoint me? im not a big shot, and yes you would say "why should i listen to you?" i can tell you this: im treating you as my good buddy and im telling you to do things for your own good, so that you and the people around you wont get hurt physically and mentally. you seen me talking to other friends like how i talk to you? no. it's because i care more about you and im keen on making you a better person. for now i'll just pray that you will come round. sigh.

#3:
you are the kind of friend that i would like to have whenever we have things to gossip and all. however, dont you think that all along you had been confiding in me and expected all my attention while you're doing so? why am i asking this. whenever i want to confide in you, you give me that bo chap attitude and merely acknowledge my words with a nod or just that irritating 'orh'. do you know how irritating it is? if you want a sincere listening ear, you have to be that person's sincere listening ear as well. that's not all, and this problem is only minor. ive talked to you before about it as well. you hadn't been changing in any way as well! you still have the cheek to say another person is a Leopard who will never change its spots. aren't you one as well? im always the moderator wherever i go and i keep quiet about these personal and sensitive topics, all just to protect all of you, my friends. if you'd carry on like this, i may just have to leave you there to be on your own already and only entertain you whenever you have problems, yeah? happy? you tend to have the habit of leaving the old to one side and attend to the new. when the new is not available, you pick up the old again. the cycle then repeats itself. you may find it fun, but i find it upsetting, disappointing, and tiring. this is not an issue of jealousy or whatever bullshit. you are just not treating your friends seriously. you say people being biased towards their companions and neglecting their friends. you're no different as well. you will fly to him at the second when you just see a LITTLE frown on his face. so what if he's your whatever? at least you can wait till later to talk to him, rather than just fly to him straightaway, right? this action of yours speaks alot really. you cry for almost nothing, and anything. you were kicking up such a big fuss when that so-called fateful thing happened to you. i didnt want to say a thing because i saw how heartbroken were you. i had just to leave you there to cry it all out. what am i supposed to do anyway? you'll just keep saying, "it's okay. nothing." whatever others. you always had me to lie on. im not even sure if i have yours. upsetting to think about it, not to mention knowing it.

i dont rant about these people for nothing; they're my friends. somehow they are just the kind of people that just wont listen. yes, stubborness. the things i do for the love for my friends. are my efforts wasted?

*DISCLAIMER:
no comments and criticism is ideal for this post. you have something to say? dont start bitching on your blog or to your friends about me. dont presume that the person im talking about is you and start bitching as well. unsure? find me and talk to me.

i always feel like breaking down whenever i think about this big problem of mine. rargh. give me the strength to overcome it. i'll pray.

FIOZO SAYS SO.