When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

it was a tiring day, and yet a crazy one. sang those oldies with Aishu and others. total madness. we really turned off some of the others as well. songs like "Cha-Cham-Bo" etc. haha. something to share:

(out of randomness, suddenly..)
girl1: you know.. you should wear underwear, to be hygiene!
girl2: hygienic.
girl1: and, you should wear bras, to make your boobs stand!
girl2: stand? wow! your boobs can stand!
girl1: *laughs like mad*
girl2: boobs dont stand. bras hold boobs in place, not make them stand.
both: *laugh like mad*

yeah, and i thought that was cold and lame too. so shut up if you are about to say these two comments. nyahaha :D

Mega screwed this morning man. you didn't care about St John! like, how could you! hahaha. never mind, i guess he was really nervous. school celebrated St John's Day and NCC Day together today. im sitting at the back of the class with Albert and it's like so cool, an NCC guy and an SJAB girl. okay fine, ignore that part. Albert is like so hot can. LOL. anyway, he broke his badge today, cos he was 'too strong'. yeah, dumb.

anyway, i dont feel like finishing MJT's holiday TYS homework. i really hope she doesn't call my mom man. brrrh.

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im going to be so and very crude and blunt.

like, hell yeah.
what is your fucking problem?
like really now, and always?
you had given me the impression that you are attention-seeking, like a primary-school kid. it's like as if you didn't know that a BLOG is opened to the public, and as if nobody would talk about the things you write on it. don't wanna talk about it? like, sheesh lah. what's the point, you tell me. trying to be profound and 'chim' in your writing, and added stupid Singlish inside? like it's so totally wrong. yeah and like, i am not the only one thinking this way. you cannot even take simple and straightforward jokes? that's so peculiar of you. initially, i thought you were a mature and understanding person. i feel like i was so wrong about you then. yeah, it's really disappointing. i feel like saying, what i said above, to your face. however, i couldn't bring myself to. you made me dislike you. you made me afraid of you. all, until i dont even dare to confront you. you keep blaming others for spoiling your day and all. i felt sympathetic for your hardship out there at first, being so-called 'tortured' out there. as time passed, i knew. maybe the problem had always laid inside you. so just ask yourself: have you ever thought of how the people around you felt at that moment? you sounded one-sided, and i shook my head. tsk tsk.

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work is piling up. and i better catch up.
hah. Revo tomorrow. Bryan's going down. yaye :)

Au Revoir.

i did a few interesting quizzes in a website that i got off brother Jamesss' blog. to those people who really know me, you will be as surprised as i am on how accurate these results could be. i almost cried out. so yeah. here's something for you guys to know more about Fiona here :)


Quiz: Know your true self
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


Quiz: Hot or Not? (for girls)
Part 1] Self Confidence: 73% -> You're confident.
[Part 2] Sensory Perceptions: 67% -> Sensitive to stimulation around you.
[Part 3] Body Language: 63% -> Quite good at utilizing on occasions.
[Part 4] Conversational Skills: 93% -> A real talent!
[Part 5] Empathy For Others: 80% -> An extremely kind and warm person.

"You are a typical girl, like the majority."
Attractiveness: 72.67%



i love you you YOU! be honoured :D

MY HAIR ROCKS LIKE UBER WOOOTS, TOTALLY.

it's been a long time..

..and i finally got a hair of my liking.
no complains.
no regrets.
so ROCK.
cheap.

YAY :D


i wonder what are Disclaimers for? tsk tsk.

Short Update:
it's the first day of school today.
and i went to school with less than 10% of the holiday homework done. yaye :) how fun is that. and great, i wasn't reprimanded by MJT. surprising; i only finished all her Kinematics homework (which is damn hell of easy), did only a few questions of her 100 Indices questions, and only half of Paper 1 in the EMath TYS. hah. i guess she was biased. oh well, it's common.

anyway.

im going to change my blogskin soon.
stay tuned ;)

for the moment, enjoy my fave:
MCR's The Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill You :)

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The Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill You
Gaze into her killing jar
I'd sometimes stare for hours
(sometimes stare for hours)
She even poked the holes so I can breathe.
She bought the last line.
I'm just the worst kind.
Of guy to argue.
With what you might find.
And for the last night I lie.
Could I lie with you?

[Chorus:]
Alright
Give up
Get down. It's just the hardest part of living.
Alright
She wants
It all to come down this time.

Lost in the prescription she's got something else in mind (something
else in mind).
Check into the Hotel Bella Muerte.
It gives the weak flight.
It gives the blind sight.
Until the cops come.
Or by the last light.
And for the last night I lie.
Could I lie next to you?

[Chorus x2]

Pull the plug.
But I'd like to learn your name.
When holding on.
Well I hope you do the same.
Awww sugar.
Slip into this tragedy you've spun this chamber dry.

[Chorus x2]

Pull the plug.
But I'd like to learn your name.
And holding on.
Well I hope you do the same.
Awww sugar.

"Interlude"

Since we talked to her now
Come angels of the lord,
Come angels of the lord.


au revior.

bloghopped here and there, and i just realised that those kids people nowadays are 'copyrighting' their way of writing and blogging. yada yada.

let's start with this kind of blogging luh. like so cool right? people are replacing the original 'lah's with 'luh's. what, think that it sounds more English? it's still Singlish. oh and not forgetting the 'haha's becoming 'hur hur's as well. they just sound, retarded. blah. okay, it seems so cool to some people and they start to use it. so and yeah, blablabla.

next is this kind. bold is like so very cool! emphasizing your words and everything. then you talk about your day and emphasizing on the key things you did that day, or highlighting the key things you want or like or blabla. well well, this kind of blogging is rare, but there are people blogging like this. take my sister for example, cos she started it. Ha ha.

come nd let's see this. th famous so-called 'Celeste's' way of blogging with al th short forms like these. see al my 'the's becoming 'th's, my 'and's becoming 'nd's, nd my 'to's becoming 't's. cool huh. yeah, it seems so t some people out there. it took me some time t really understand wht they're blogging nd al. anyway, with Celeste being so 'famous', which i dont know why, there are bound t be people copying her nd al, so yeah. some people out there just got a little too unlucky and hence got spammed by 'th followers of Celeste' nd went against al th people who copied her style. i can imagine them going, "HAIL CELESTE!" and yada yada.

n0w n0w. ever heard 0f twiitx tryinn n0rt tuhh be twiitx and tryiin tuhh be English, and failed badly? yes, there are these pe0ple ar0und. wad, they are tryinn tuhh be half ang-m0h and half twiitx? n0 manz. these pe0ple are makin the w0rst miistake everr. the English will nv exccept tiish pe0ple derrz.x but yet, there are still pe0ple using it. it just amuses me when i see people blogging with the content like Xiaxue, but their spelling and way of typing just sucks like bullshit. moral of the story: if you want to type as good as Xiaxue, check your English before publishing your post before you make a fool out of yourself. remember: a blog is open to public.

last but not least, 0rf c0urssee iish tiish kiind 0rf typiin9 n0rrxz. i dunch wish tuhh elaborate.


one girl just got spammed because people accuse her of copying so-called Celeste's style of blogging and lifestyle. i dont know about the real thing, but i mean like, what's their problem. i found alot more Celeste-wannabes out there and they are not spammed. so what does this mean? that girl has super bad luck or what? No. it's the problem with these people who has nothing to do but spamming other people. now her old blog has turned upside down with bullshit and everything. so u guess these people are finally happy. congrats yeah?
what's with Celeste and what's so good about her? im not dissing her cos i personally like her somehow. what i mean is, what's so good about her that make these anonymous people to go all out to spam others and all? she's just some normal teenager like everyone, the only thing is she just clubs ALOT. so what are you guys trying to tell the world? go clubbing daily and you'll get famous? hah, bullshit. she has her own lifestyle and others have their own. it's their problem to copy Celeste and all, but why should you people spend your precious time to just spam her so-called 'lousy wannabes'? you call those wannabes not having a life of their own; i think these people just dont have a life of their own as well, huh. so now what, HAIL CELESTE, yeah? let's all bow.

my sister complained about two girls copying her blogging style as well. hm, i guess she's popular among the people of her age as well huh. but it's really ridiculous to see people using a blog address exactly the same name as yours, just that only the hyphen or whatever at another position that's all. these two people got spammed as well. however, i feel that they deserved it. BECAUSE, they're far much worse than the Celeste-wannabes, trust me. so moral of the story: Celeste-wannabes are just PEANUTS. oh well well. *shrugs*

*DISCLAIMER*
i dont want any followers of Celeste spamming my tagboard, filling it with spam and all the bullshit. so yeah. you're angry? come confront me. this is my blog and i express whatever i feel like to. read my entries carefully before come accusing me that im flaming anyone. i've had experiences of readers mis-read my entries and spammed me for NOTHING. so yeah, read and think before you act. have a nice day.

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Short Rant:
i cut my toenails not long ago. and im so smart to cut some of them too deep. now they're hurting. ugh. i feel like dying. i haven't finish my homework, but i finished Chemistry YAYE. and i haven't choreograph the dance yet!! omgosh SueAnn dont kill me.

im tired.
and i miss YOU, like totally :)

QUIZ AGAIN.
1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!"

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED by: [got this off Isaac's blog :)]

Favourites
favourite colour: RED! BLACK! ORANGE!
favourite food: PIZZA!!
favourite song: ones with catchy beats that make me groove.
favourite movie: Ju-On and Ju-On 2
favourite sport: running!
favourite day of the week: almost everyday :)
favourite season: Winter!
favourite ice-cream: cookies&cream, tiramisu!

Currents
current mood: tortured :/
current taste: plain water; nothing.
current clothes: t-shirt, shorts.
current desktop: collage of photos from KL trip :)
current toenail: -nil-
current time: 17:51
current surroundings: my room
current annoyances: -nil-
current thoughts: Can i burn my homework?

First
first best friends: Jeslyn.
first crush: Eddy. LOL.
first movie: Lord of the Rings; Two Towers! :D
first lie: hmmm.
first music: oh oh oh! Jacky Cheung's :)

Lasts
last cigarette: i dislike smokers.
last drink: plain water.
last car ride: yesterday.
last crush: hmmm.
last movie: Runaway Vacation
last phone call: Mama
last CD played: transactions for remix. ahha.

Have you ever
have you ever dated your best friend: nope.
have you ever broken the law: hm, forgot.
have you ever been arrested: nope.
have you ever skinny-dipped: nope.
have you ever been on tv: yeah.
have you ever kissed someone you don't know: No.

5 things you are wearing: t-shirt, shorts, hair-band, headphones, no more.
4 things you done today: used the com, IMed, chem hw, drink water? :)
3 things you can hear right now: fan, typing, people signing in on MSN.
1 thing you do when you are bored: watch tv.

*5 people to tag?
Vicki
Alethia
Eelin
Brenda
and, whoever else who wants to do it!



im being tortured by last minute work.
so guys, dont follow my footsteps :(
ahh bullshit.

READ THIS:

• Do you have a talent in dancing?
• Do you choreograph dance moves?
• Do you groove as long as any music is on?
• Do you pick up new dance moves quickly?
• Are you interested in dance?
• Are you a dedicated person?
• Are you not afraid to show your talent(s)?

If you answer YES to most of the above,
REVO-TIA WANTS YOU.

Preferably a GUY for the moment. however, GIRLS, dont hesitate as well. it is alright if you do not have a dance bakground. talk to me over MSN if you are interested. :D

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Short Update:
we only completed I'm Good for today's session. sad. but anyway, we are only left with Bad and the Britney part of our remix, plus our formations. so yeah, ahead of our agenda. GREAT :) but the bad thing is, i need to choreograph that Britney part. right. and yeah, Esplay is getting more and more crowded during the past week and days with breakers and other dancers. there's this Salsa-dancing couple who appeared today and yesterday as well. gosh, i love their moves man. hah. and YES, that Christopher pang-seh-ed me like, how many times already?? im so going to nag at him like mad when the next time we meet lah. GRRRH.

i dislike arrogant people, so i won't be one myself. i didnt mention or hint that i am popular so dont put words into my mouth. you wouldn't like it if stinky socks are stuffed into your mouth dont you? then dont do it to others. im sure you wouldn't like my situation if you were in my shoes. so yeah, have a nice day and BYE.

[edit]
oh yes, went out with WENNY in the morning. caught a morning movie: Runaway Vacation. a very heartwarming show i can say :) i miss WENNY soooo much! the last time we met was like, the CSS Preview show? i forgot. argh, since the last CSS recording lah! heehee :D went to a toy area at Suntec and went crazy there. we started inserting all our one-dollar coins into the machine and kept turning. this is what i got:

PETERPAN IS LIKE SO CUTE CAN!
i loved and still love Peter Pan. do you? :D

ooh oooooh! i've downloaded this Font Maker yesterday and i tried it out like only just now. SO COOL PLEASE! at the same time, i made some photoshop brushes out of boredom as well :)

nice? ask me over MSN if you want the font :D


im so high now.
it's past my bedtime.
so yeah. NIGHT.
- 12.03AM
[/edit]

Highlight:
i feel so accomplished! SueAnn and i choreographed the whole of 1 2 Step today. triple wooots :) we felt tired, yet happy. and so yeah. met Kenric on the way to City Hall MRT station. damn idiotic lah.

TAG REPLIES
ningster: :)
c.y: sorry, but no.
isaac: no problem, and thanks! you too :)
[[michelle]]*: OH HELLOO!! :D
tessa: you have to like, do a coding for it in your template. and the next question you're gonna ask is "how?". and now im telling you that im lazy to tell you. so yeah, sorry.
chloe: yah okay changed.
nAtAsHa: hihi!

I ALMOST FORGOT.



HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! :D

Short Post:
new blogsong (again): Geek In The Pink - Jason Mraz.
dududu dududu dudududududu ~~
we could be the talk across the town

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sueann:
let's say all the wrong things okay?
sueann:
okay, we'll go back and start screwing.
runie:
and if it falls apart?
fiona:
we shall screw it back.

get it? i reckon you dont :P
Revo-tia knows it all. UH HUH UH HUH :D

Short Warning:
Ermx ,, cann ii dunnchxz antertaiine piip0l typiin9 lykke tiish liia0 .? ii em buerrii siick 0rb iit lErr n0rrx ,. ruellii n0rrx . wAn m0rre tymme h0rrxz , ii wuill g0 c0mplaiin tuhh muii dArdarr lErr n0rrzx ,. h0ng gann lArrxz .

moral of the story:
if you need something, ask PROPERLY.
thank you so much.

didn't i bring out this message very clearly for several posts already? SHEESH!

- -- - -

there are more and more anonymous people adding me on MSN and Friendster. on MSN, when i asked them who they are, they either "want to make friends", or "i added you from blogskins", or "i see your profile at Friendster then added you lor". yes, and my next answer to them is, "uh huh, then?"

im not being rude or anything. im just against the thing of making friends with someone whom i dont know and never met before so yeah.

that reminds me of one psycho guy who added me on MSN.

Me:
hu r u
Him:
ayman. can make friends?

first mistake: can MAKE friends? goodness. and what a weird name.

Me:
sorry i dont befriend strangers.
Him:
why?????

woah, he sounds angry lah. ridiculous.

Me:
what's with your question marks.
Him:
sorry.
Him:
so wanna be friends??

grrrh, he doesn't get me!

Me:
i already told you i dont befriend strangers.
Him:
wan or not????

and then again.

Me:
you sound so agitated over this small thing lah. gosh.
Him:
sorry. so wan?
Me:
NO. *blocks user*

and i mumbled: psycho.

nice little play huh :)

it's so interesting to watch these people at work. what's the point of making friends with someone whom you dont even know how they look like? that's like so scary for the victim, like me. i am super sensitive, corrective, whatever, about the English Language. when i see CAPS, many question and exclaimation marks, whatever else, i will just shoot that person this question: "what's with your CAPS/???/!!!/whatever" it's a routine for me, it seems. and im getting really irritated by it as more and more of these people are adding me online. especially those who cannot type English properly.
i get fed-up at their English, while they get fed-up at me keep asking them to repeat their words or at my oh-too-chim English for them.
haha, it's really interesting to watch these people at work, i shall repeat.

oh yes, this applies the same to Friendster.
if i dont know you, i wont accept your request. im sorry to all those Zhiyang fans and my blogreaders out there who spent your time talking to me on MSN and yadablabla. but i dont know you, so yeah. if you are the kind of person who thinks that you know me just beacause you talked to me on MSN, that's a huge mistake. correct it.



im tired of everything.

got this random quiz off baby Alethia's blog :)

1. Starting Time: 15:04HRS
2. Full Name: Teo Rui Wen Fiona
3. Good Friend(s): Eelin, Shimin, Brenda, Jamesss, Dixie, Richie, Alethia, Vanessa, Vicki, Dalton, Ryan, Norman, Ian. more of others as well i guess :]
4. Sexiest Friend: SueAnn!! lol.
5. Funniest Friend(s): MY TRUSTY BODYGAURDS :D
6. Smartest friends: haha, Jovita!
7. Dumbest Person: hm. too many to think of :P
8. Shyest Friend: thinking.
9. Most boring person: person? i say the person who gives boring speeches on TV.
10. Who Do you get advice from: i get them myself.
11. Height : im standing at 1.61M and proud of it okay!
12. Date Of Birth: 16 April 1991
13. Righty / Lefty : Righty
14. Shoe Size : Nike's 9. Adidas's 8.5 lol.
15. Shoe Brand: NIKE.
16. Do you Crack any Body Parts: not myself.
17. Siblings: one irritating, yet cute younger sister, MEL.
18. Boy Friend/Girl Friend: im single, and half available.
19. Crush: guys with HOT HAIR. uhm.
20. Liked a Teacher: ooh ooh! Mr Eugene Tan! lol. like, im not the only one lah.
21. Hope the person you send this to would reply: whoever sees this.
22. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: i forgot when i did so.
23. Ran Into a Glass Door: HMMM. not once!
24. Gone Skinny Dipping: eh.
25. Nearly hit by a car: i think.
26. Ran into a parked car: HAHA. i think so, i dont think so.

1. Girls Fill Out About Guys
2. Boxers or Briefs: one is hot, one is sexy. HOW TO CHOOSE?
3. Tall or Short : tallie :)
4. Does size matter: size, where?
5. Six-pack or Muscular Arms: not too rocky will do :)
6. Body or Personality: both, but more of personality.
7. Ear Pierced or Not : i dont mind. not too gangter-looking though.
8. Sporty or Outdoorsy: both!
9. Good or Bad guy: nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai :)

1. Which One is Better
2. Coke or pepsi: COKE.
3. K.F.C or Mcdonalds: MAC!
4. Cats or Dogs : PUPPIES, KITTENS! okay, miniatures.
5. Coffee or Tea : both?
6. Eastside or westside: im alright with both.
7. Vanilla or chocolate: BOTH. depending on my mood.
8. Cake or Cookies: COOKIES!
9. Purple striped Lime socks or white socks: uh, white.
10. Sunset or Sunrise: SUNSET.
11. Day or Night: both are important to me.
12. Lights on or off : alright with both
13. Summer or Winter: WINTER.

1. Your favourite
2. Food: PIZZA
3. Holiday destination: Christ Church @ NEW ZEALAND, Disneyland @ Florida!!
4. Radio Station: im a POWER 98 person.
5. Place: somewhere that won't ever bore me.
6. Will you believe in God: no. there is no God. there's myself, and people.
7. What you want to be when u grow up: freelance/hiphop dancer, radio DJ.
8. Define Love: beyond words.
9. Favourite Place: isnt this asked?
10. Favourite day(s) of the week: hm. seems like everyday.
11. Bedtime: haha. 11pm :P
12. Satan or God or atheist: none.

1. More questions
2. Do you love someone right now: of course.
3. o you care about someone: of course.
4. Do you think of someone everyday: yes.
5. Do you think someone is special in any way: yes, of course.
6. Finishing time: 15:21HRS
7. Date: 16 June 2006

ta da :]

Short Rant:
my refridgerator smells of durian.
im tempted to eat it but i just dont want my mouth to smell like durian so yeah. ta da.

it's raining, when im like about to go out.

i've just dug up all of my holiday homework.
i just realised i've so many things to do!

im feeling angsty.

GAARRH.
periods just turn me down, and mad, lah.

like, always.

Short Update:

MY NEW NIKE SHIRT! WHEEETS. the front design:

so-very punk please. nice right? it's YELLOW. haha! *ahem*

and this is Mel's design (at the back):

damn nice also lah! Nike Air. it's vertical by the way.

hm.
i miss someone. somehow.

Short Talk:
WOOOT. MILOBING & J3 :D

tml's Esplanade again.
gotta do some 30s of choreography of a song. lucky for me to have choreographed some steps during the KL trip, mwahaha! :) whatever.

im going nutty nuts lah.

im just a crazy kind of girl
i'll tell it to the world
i've just begun, having my fun, yeah
inside me there's something i've found
i wanna shop around
i've just begun, dont wanna settle down

Photo Update on KL:
click on the following simple collages for the full-size (you cant see a thing like this anyway). it will open in a new window, dont worry :)







and here's a video i'd like to share with you during the trip. WATCH ATIQ! haha :D



AND,
here are just some other random videos i took in the past. friends and all :) enjoy!

watch AhPek Chew! XD

the cat's cute huh :)

hear Ryan talking to Jinggan. "Dont cry. Want a prawn?" LOL :D

Gene's feeding Chew! haha.


BYE.

Bitching Moment:
i seriously have the urge to bitch about some people, right now. so please excuse the crude, explicit, and broken language if they're somehow present.

#1:
you are just ruining it all. ALL, i say. once you came in, two of my bestest buds began to drift away from the clique. and what else? you three seemed to influence one another and now the both of them have changed into someone else whom me and my other bud dont even feel that we know them anymore. why must you do this? yeah i know you're cute sometimes and all. however, you dont have real friends do you? i have the impression that you take her as your bestest friend on earth. have you ever asked yourself if it was true? you think it's like a 'woah' thing whenever you're with her. you're fickle-minded and she doesn't like it. she is fickle-minded too. i guess it is like friends like friends, huh? bullshit. i dont know what you guys are up to. i just cannot shake off the feeling that the drifting in between the clique doesn't only concern the ones in it, but somehow you are involved as well. everything changed when you interrupted us. why? i dont dislike you, and i dont hate you. i still see you as a friend of mine. but why are you doing this? so you say, or grumble, or complain, saying that you will be the outcast if you tag along, to her. so she gave in to you. did you know what happened? did you? have you even thought about it? i know she's like your oh-so-honey-goodie friend, whatever. mind you, she used to have her own friends, and you are taking her away from them. dont you think you are selfish? even the outsiders can see that im walking alone. i am really disappointed in you, both of you, three of you, in this aspect. im disappointed in myself that i dont have the courage to tell this right at your face and settle it all, and just blogging everything here anonymously. why? because i know you. i know you, alright. i know what will happen. see, at least i thought about the consequences. have ever thought of the outcomes of whatever you do? have you? im such a failure at handling these kind of people like you, giving me a hard time. im already, and still treating you as a good friend of mine and im not even making sound to you about this, what else do you want? take them away? good luck in doing so then, i dont care. if you are really that desperate to do this for a real friend, i say go ahead. im saying my rights of having someone taking away my best buds, and not portraying any jealousy. my conscience is super fucking cyrstal clear. is yours as clear as mine?

#2:
ive talked to you my dear. i really tried. but why haven't you shown any improvement at all? and yet you still complain about my attitude towards you? im very disappointed in you. im very disappointed in myself as well, for not being strong enough to be able to persuade you. why? so i guess you think whatever you are doing is right, and you know what you are doing? fine, so be it. the point is, did you ever heed my advices, and thought about them? i am really upset about it. i plucked up all my courage to approach you and talked to you about it and what do i get? backstabbed. i wasnt condemning you, i wasnt insulting you or criticising you, at all! i was trying to help you, my friend! if you didnt mean so much to me, i would not even have thought of talking to you already. dont you think so? im a really straightforward person and i tell you the things you're obviously doing wrong and i expected you to change. why must you do this to me, disappoint me? im not a big shot, and yes you would say "why should i listen to you?" i can tell you this: im treating you as my good buddy and im telling you to do things for your own good, so that you and the people around you wont get hurt physically and mentally. you seen me talking to other friends like how i talk to you? no. it's because i care more about you and im keen on making you a better person. for now i'll just pray that you will come round. sigh.

#3:
you are the kind of friend that i would like to have whenever we have things to gossip and all. however, dont you think that all along you had been confiding in me and expected all my attention while you're doing so? why am i asking this. whenever i want to confide in you, you give me that bo chap attitude and merely acknowledge my words with a nod or just that irritating 'orh'. do you know how irritating it is? if you want a sincere listening ear, you have to be that person's sincere listening ear as well. that's not all, and this problem is only minor. ive talked to you before about it as well. you hadn't been changing in any way as well! you still have the cheek to say another person is a Leopard who will never change its spots. aren't you one as well? im always the moderator wherever i go and i keep quiet about these personal and sensitive topics, all just to protect all of you, my friends. if you'd carry on like this, i may just have to leave you there to be on your own already and only entertain you whenever you have problems, yeah? happy? you tend to have the habit of leaving the old to one side and attend to the new. when the new is not available, you pick up the old again. the cycle then repeats itself. you may find it fun, but i find it upsetting, disappointing, and tiring. this is not an issue of jealousy or whatever bullshit. you are just not treating your friends seriously. you say people being biased towards their companions and neglecting their friends. you're no different as well. you will fly to him at the second when you just see a LITTLE frown on his face. so what if he's your whatever? at least you can wait till later to talk to him, rather than just fly to him straightaway, right? this action of yours speaks alot really. you cry for almost nothing, and anything. you were kicking up such a big fuss when that so-called fateful thing happened to you. i didnt want to say a thing because i saw how heartbroken were you. i had just to leave you there to cry it all out. what am i supposed to do anyway? you'll just keep saying, "it's okay. nothing." whatever others. you always had me to lie on. im not even sure if i have yours. upsetting to think about it, not to mention knowing it.


i dont rant about these people for nothing; they're my friends. somehow they are just the kind of people that just wont listen. yes, stubborness. the things i do for the love for my friends. are my efforts wasted?

*DISCLAIMER:
no comments and criticism is ideal for this post. you have something to say? dont start bitching on your blog or to your friends about me. dont presume that the person im talking about is you and start bitching as well. unsure? find me and talk to me.

i always feel like breaking down whenever i think about this big problem of mine. rargh. give me the strength to overcome it. i'll pray.

this is like the second consecutive day going out with Dalton and Ryan. was out with them yesterday before my daimokukai and after, along with Claire.

The Omen was alright. very common kind of show. well, it did make me jump in my seat four times without fail, during the sudden scenes of course (as usual). and that place is damn effing cold. my sweater didnt work, and with addition of that bloody-thick jacket of Dalton's still couldn't keep me warm for more than a minute. hah. was shivering there throughout the last half of the show. damn.

and guess what. we arrived and PS at the wrong time when the tickets are selling fast. knn. we got the first row, first three seats; 01, 02, 03. WTH. my neck was aching. suay.

it's a sad show :(

anyway.
that Chris just wouldn't come out of his house to accompany me today to the movies. maybe he's still sick of that auntie who caught and lectured him on that fateful day. haha. whatever.


im dying soon.

i mean my voice.

no, no, my throat.

argh. bonkers. BYE.

Song Update:

Shut Your Mouth - Garbage
Welcome we love you
We hate you
We love you
We want you
We need you
We wish we were like you
They say you're a saint
You're a whore
You're a sinner
That he had you
He made you
He can't live without you.

Would you confess if we asked
That you nurture the urge
To declare that it's time
To settle down
With a man of your own
You want a baby
A family
A piece of security

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it

What's your opinion on the dire situation
In our land here
Our guest here
Of course you'll be nice here
How do you feel about god and religion
Are you good people
Bad people
Guess it doesn't matter people.

Your place
My place
Make her bring that famous face
You got some
You want some
You wanna let me get you some
We know your music but of course we'd never buy it
It's too fake man
Right man!
(We don't give a fucking damn)

I hear you say it
Play it smart girl
Win the game love
Give 'em what they want
What they want to see and you could be a big star
You could go far
Make a landmark
What have you been reading you smart girl?
Win the game love
Give 'em what they want
What they want to see and you could be a big star
You could go far
Make a landmark
Make a shit load.

And the world spins by
With everybody moaning
Pissing, bitching and everyone is shitting
On their friends
On their love
On their oaths
On their honour
On their graves
Out their mouths
And their words say nothing

I waited to say something
Oh shut your mouth
I wanted to say something
Just shut your mouth
I waited to say something
Oh shut your mouth
I wanted to be something
Just shut your mouth!


though it's old, i still love Garbage. i had forgotten about them ever since i've stopped watching MTV a few months ago. well, i found them again! hooray.

gonna watch The Omen 666 later with Dalton and Ryan. au revior.

HELLO EVERY-BAH-DEE! :)

just got home not an hour ago.

i missed my LAPPY.
i missed my bed.
i missed my bolster.
i missed my clean toilet.
i missed my room.
i missed MSN Messenger.
i missed my phone reception (NO ROAM).
i missed dancing.

last but not least,
i missed ALL OF YOU, MY DARLINGS! :)

i've got a new bag.
i've got 4 pairs of new earrings.
i've got a box of coffee chocs, thanks Ryan! :D
last but not least,
i've got a hell load of photos! didn't take any photos on the way back to Singapore as i was feeling all headache-y and giddy all the way. i've got sore-throat as well, just hope that i won't get a hot temperature coming my way. sad case. the last two photos in my camera memory are just me and Sheena and Sini. pathetic, haha.

last but not least,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PIGASS-DALTON! :D

photos will be up soon :)


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Short Farewell:
i'll be leaving for KL in less than 10 hours' time.
MIA till 8th June, Thursday.

dont miss me! :)

miss ya'll.
loveya.

i'll start off this one with something random.
i just think of Greg when i see green tea since we had this dumb argument just yesterday.

me:
it's an ipod, not apple.
greg:
*stares at me innocently* i said ipod.
me:
no, you said apple!
greg:
no, i said ipod!
me:
no, but you really said apple!
greg:
i said.. *opens eyes wide* ..GREEN TEA!
(after a few seconds)
greg:
*eyes still wide* (said something else which i forgot, lol)
sueann:
my God, that's like so random lah!

and all laughed.

ta-da.

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i was watching all those rather old Hong Kong lovey-lovey shows and all. it made me think of myself. i've realised how much i've grown, like, wow. i found myself being ignorant once, childish once, naive once, or maybe even a little bit playful. the people who made me grow, who made pre-maturity possible for me, are the ones i shall thank alot.

----- brought me into the world of first-love. being excited and nervous whenever he's around and stuff. a great person and a great friend to have by my side, as he is always there to talk to me. it wasn't a relationship between us, nor even a simple friendship; something in between. it felt kind of odd for me then as i expected more from us; maybe it's because i was just too young. however, it is you from whom i learnt that even this simple, yet close friendship should be cherished. one the day you said it was over, devasted, i sure was. you made me grow mentally then, but it made me lose trust in males for a moment. and so it was there. being influenced by peers, i felt a need to be depressed over a guy who ditched me. that, is so-not right of me then. everyday was shit for me and i broke two hearts because of you. i hated myself. one of the hearts i broke, was a pure loving heart that is willing to give me anything. however, there is just this big tree planted in my heart that there wasn't any space left for the poor little tree.
look at us now.
we're as happy as we can be.
im glad i moved on.
thanks.

----- is like the cutest person i've ever met in the world. i wouldn't have cheered and woken up from my dreamland without him. he was there for me alright, always, for that period. listening to me and all. sweet, childish, funny, and good-looking. the thoughts of our moments spent just sets my stomach go fluttery like it was again. we were so natural, the feeling of being a young couple just spending our days off together after school, here and there. the days we had long conversations whenever you sent me home, the day when i accompanied you when you injured your leg. we weren't a real couple anyway. it was also just a step higher than friendship. everything else, it all seemed perfect. all these took a sharp turn within a moment.
from then i reaslised; things can come to you in a second, they can be gone in a second as well. i regretted not cherishing the moments we had. the thought of it now just makes me think of the MSN sad smiley.
my soft spot for you is still there,
i dare to admit that i loved you the most.
thanks for giving me the feeling or being cared and loved, for a period.

------ rescued me from that well of out-of-love. he was like my all for that few months. showered me with love, care and everything else a real companion will do. we were a couple, but us being one was difficult; we had to run. it so happened that our relationship seemed to be a taboo to some people. some people whom im afraid of. it all seemed well, with all the avoiding and stuff, because i was with you, and you were with me. blablabla, everything came to a stop in the end. it's inevitable, i know.
however, you made me grow the very most for now. many thanks.


female hormones are raging, yes. im turning from a tomboy to a normal lady, and im glad for it. i never realised how much better i looked in these more girly clothes. infatuation seems to be a big affair for me now.

everything seems wrong with you and me.

but i get along so well with the others.

why?

is it me, or is it you.

the thing that makes me wonder; boys.

Short Update:
new blog song: Shake - Ying Yang Twins ft. Pitbull
this is the song we'll be dancing to for our Future Division Sports Carnival '06 mass dance. wooot :D

dance @ Esplanade today.
i gotta work out, seriously. rarh.

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I FINALLY GOT A NEW OPTICAL MOUSE FOR MY LAPPY! after waiting for such as looooong long time. haha, pathetic. ANYWAY, my new optical mouse is like so cool lah! the LED light can give out all the 7 colours of the rainbow, including white. how nice is that? i can't stop staring at it lah lol. it's making me dizzy as well :/ YAYE.
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this Japanese variety show, Gaki No Tsukai, just makes my day man! found their episodes on YouTube and i shall let you guys have a great laugh! these are the two epsiodes which sends me laughing without fail, even though how many times i watch them XD

in this episode, they will be caned if they laugh.

i think the guy, who got caned the most, is SUPER HOT please! :D

this guy gets a screaming night, while we laugh our asses out.

notice when the first time the twin girls appeared, one of the girls jumped when Yamasaki screamed at the sight of them! awww, LOL.

i love Japs XD
just listen to the way they scream "ITAI-! (OUCH!)"

if only Singapore had these variety shows; SO MUCH better than dont know what Huan Le Dian Feng or something. the only problem is that if these shows appear on Singapore's television, those kaypoh aunties and uncles will (confirm) complain to the government or Mediacorp. RARGH.

i just did a spring cleaning in my friends list in Friendster. you guys should know what i mean. and what the hell, i cleared up to like, (521-445=) 94 friends? my goodness.
i cleared those people whom i dont know at all, and also those unnecessary 'fanclubs' that i joined last time as well. to come to think of it, adding those fanclubs thing is kinda childish; like those JayChou FC blabla.

there are apparently more than 20 people that i dont know at all, lah. those are the ones that added me, and never talked to me before. plus, they are not closely linked to me as well. dont you just find it weird? i have the feeling that they just want to make their number of friends in Friendster look nice, that's all. yeah?

oh, i have to say about this thing that i discovered.
there's this guy called Brent, who like, added me last year or so? i just happened to view his profile just now, and guess what. he has photos taken with Glenn! omg. then i told Melissa about it, and guess what? she said this guy is Kenneth's brother. i was like, WTH. a total stranger who added me so long ago, and it happens to be a relative of my junior. scary lah. i have to admit this guy is not bad looking, really. i just HATE the way he smiles/poses for his photos. like as if he's trying to show off that he has nice wrinkles. lol.

i was being fair to the people i cleared, because i checked their profiles before deleting them. however, there are just a handful of the deleted ones that i didnt even bother to view their profiles. most of these people had their Friendster names like (random):
XiaoZhu
'lUrVEz-
-unforgiivenn
Xx ZhUzHu xX
i mean like, get a life? it's so fortunate for them to have a proper name already, and yet they still want to name themselves as pigs? or saying that they are unforgiven and whatever shit? ahh, these kiddos are driving me nuts.

end h0rrxz ,, ii buerii siicK 0rf thEsE piip0ol lErr n0rrxz ,.
the English language (including punctuations) is being destroyed :(

is a companion (bf/gf) compulsory? it's like, at least 60% of the people in my list have these photos of them with their darlings being so-very intimate. im talking about those people (girls especially) who post their pictures with their partners like so huggy-kissy, and not one or two; some even filled almost the whole photo gallery with them. it's okay posting photos of you and your dArdArs, i know you are proud of being attached, but, please be a little less.. you know? okay, im a little envious because im single, but that's not the point. most of these people are like, younger than me lah. gosh.
it's difficult to put these in words.

whatever.

anyway, Friendster is dying on me. whatever photos i uploaded a few days ago keep disappearing! grrrh. hate it. i hate Friendster sometimes.


__________

just got a pair of shorts and a pair of three-quarters from Baleno.
FINALLY :)

Esplanade tomorrow.
hope i can make it :)

got this off Maggy's blog. i think i did this quiz once in the previous entries. but heck, it's still cool to do another one! :D


Name 20 ppl u can think of at the top of your head.
1. PAUL TWOHILL
2. JON LEONG
3. Eelin
4. Shimin
5. Brenda
6. Dixie
7. Jamesss
8. Christopher
9. Richie
10. Bingguan
11. Alethia
12. Vicki
13. Joanne
14. Runie
15. Sueann
16. Kaixiang
17. Ian
18. Kenric
19. SOUL
20. MILO-BING

How did you meet 14?
got introduced at Esplanade :)

What would you do if you never met 1?
my life ain't that spiced, i guess!

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
LMAO, gays!

Did you ever like 19?
im in lust over their hot dance moves.

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
maybe? LOL they're brothers! :D

Describe 3.
crazy bitch. MWAHAHA.

Do you think 8 is attractive?
to some extent :)

Tell me something about 7.
he's my most favourite god-brother of all times :)

Do you know any of 12's family?
hahah, her sister.

What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?
ooh ooh, i'll go steady with her man!

What language does 15 speak?
lol, English.. and Chinese i guess?

Who is 9 going out with?
hohoho, he doesnt say :)

How old is 16 now?
sweet sixteen! <3

When was the last time you talked to 13?
today.

Who's 2 favourite band/singer?
according to SingaporeIdol.com; Freddie Mercury, Elton John, Bono, Rob Thomas, Brian Johnson, Scott Weiland, Chris Cornell, Stefanie Sun, Frank Sinatra, Jon Bon Jovi and Elvis Presley :D

Would you date 7?
why not? HAHA.

Is 15 single?
YES, haha.

What's 10's last name?
uh. sorry i dont know his surname, lol.

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
no lah.

What school does 3 go to?
SAME.

Where does 6 live?
west coast :)

Whats your favourite thing about 5?
another crazy bitch LOL.

Have you seen no.1 naked?
why, i dont mind! LMAO.


super bored lah.
wheeets :D

PAUL TWOHILL

&

JONATHAN LEONG

ARE IN THE NEXT ROUND!!!


WHEEEE XD