When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

FILLED WITH THOUGHTS
too much of them.

im like so, fucking, dead.
i forgot to see Mrs Gan AGAIN!
dead. im dead tomorrow.
im so-gonna get blasted by Mr Murali.
argh!

what does a dumb fuck mean anyway?
not acting stupid but, there's no logical meaning! think about it.. unless you can come up with a very sensible explanation for me.
i'll be waiting.

i absolutely dislike hypocrites.
and especially, i dont like people, who has a problem with you but doesnt tell you right in the face, but instead they go around telling other people about what she/he fucking thinks so badly about you. in the end, you flare up will not believe it when the news eventually reached your ears. then, you'll be dying to know who the fuck did those awful things.
oh, no i shouldnt say you will be dying to know about it. as it's none of your business! just get on with your life and yeah, enjoy. no matter what the other people are talking about you, ignore those buggers. yes, that's how life should be.

my fave philosophy:
the eye chooses to see what is beautiful,
but the mind chooses to remember the ugly.

yes, and how true is that?
human always complain that they cant move on after something. it's all because they're stuck. because they didnt see the good side of things that are just right in front of them. instead, they kept thinking of the ugly, remembering it, and forgetting about the beautiful. why?
it's just human nature.
think about it, whenever you're considering something. you will find that most of the time you're thinking of the bad things that may happen and not the good things.

i feel so confused.
i feel like dropping my SC badge.
things are just not going well. i dont want the position, i really dont. now im so frikin forgetful for not going to see Mrs Gan twice! twice!! the thought of Mr Murali staring at me, blasting, is a really scary and bad thing. it brings me wrinkles and it makes me frown. i really feel like dropping it, just to lighten the load, lighten the load so that the others wont put so much pressure on me. it's suffocating and it SUCKS.
i feel like taking a big break.

st john, i really want to help but, you're just not working out the way i wanted it to be, alright? i feel like dropping it too. but my passion for it is too strong to let it go.

Mr Murali once asked if our CCA was more prior than SC. i would like to say, YES. even if you threaten to kick me out of the council, i'll still say YES. SJAB is like part of me. i dont feel the bond in SC much. i only have friends in there, not team-mates.

my mood swings are all caused by school, by SC.
why? all these wont have happened
if only i wasnt that outstanding.
if only i wasnt that big.
if only i was just an ordinary girl.

i have alot more to say but the words cant come out from my fingertips. i really feel like exploding. ahhh! wisdom shine on me, please.

yes, i ranted all.
im feeling a weeny bit better :)



tomorrow's PE.
yaye, Mr Loh! x)

oh and,
there's nothing between me and any other guys, okay. nope, no anyone. im Single and that's it. i dont care and dont mind what you people say behind my back. my conscience is super-uber-frikin-clear. thank you :)

geog and chem tests.
gambatte. night.