When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

RANDOM RANTS
so random :b

WAH! SO MANY TESTS!
tml's E Math, then Wed's A Math while Geog is postponed to next Wed (yaye!), and then.. an English Essay test on a day which i forgot. hahaha. oh well.
i actually lost count :/
whatever.

im the kisser with kissing sounds.
im the poke-poker with irritating pokes.
lol. YOU AGAIN.

Clementi Town vs Unity
GREAT GAME GUYS!
i love your fight that you put on today. just look at how pissed the Unity guys are at the end of the game. heh. no worries that you lost, as you are always the champions in our hearts!

GAMBATTE, love you guys! :)

so good you people get to eat at Seoul Garden tml.

SIGH, pang-seh me. haha.

met sooo many people today.
i mean people whom i know, and never expected to meet. especially that long-lost Taiba! ahh, i saw him and i was like, speechless. he still looks the same as before; blur look, haha. saw KaiWen and Jon as well. dumbasses Jon and KaiWen didnt have my number, or they deleted it. gah! guys. to think that KaiWen last smsed me like, last month? :/ dots. yup.

OH, and i saw that stranger cum Yuan Ching basketballer who added me on Friendster. LOL. so funny okay. he's number 10 by the way. haha. and Jeremy's BPGHS cousin was there too! and Raphael! hahaha. okay i lost count on this as well.

there's this guy i noticed from BP. bballer number 13. ang-moh faced. lol. he asked me for 60cents at Sweettalk once, i remember. haha! comical. Vanessa/Huihiang said he's fat. LMAO!

of course not to forget, Shawn Lee was there too.

ahhh, i love my Unity number 10 :)

i got a pathetic 5marks out of 19 for Geography.
wheeets.

i got a nice 40marks out of 100 for Chinese!
woohoo~

i feel like taking up CLB :b

i like Mr Chin.
but i just dont like Physics! argh.

Chemistry is just right for me.
i like both the teacher and the subject :)

im very fated to the number 10s, i realised.
so scary.

I NEED A CURE FOR MY FEET.
they're so ugly x(

the world's turning upside down.
seriously, it is. everything's turning.

i simply can't wait for 6th March.
GAMBATTE, ZHIYANG!

did i mention this post is super uber random?

oh my gosh. so much space taken up x)



and one thing's for sure,
I LOVE BROTHER JAMESSS :D

A CHAT WITH GOD.
got the webby from zhengning's blog :)

i crapped with GOD! lol.

God:
Where are you located?
Me:
singapore
God:
Tell me a little about your life in singapore.
Me:
great. hectic. lovable. boring at times.
God:
I'm glad you liked it . What kind of food do you like? Sounds delicious. I am not sure if I would do it that often.
Me:
ROTI PRATA!!
God:
The ALICE chat robot can follow many things, like our discussion about lovable. But I did not get that.
Me:
haha whatever.
God:
That's about it.
Me:
hm
God:
Aw.
Me:
hm
God:
Wow!
Me:
anyway id better be going. i got a date
God:
What would make you better be going? Interesting. I have a lot of answers to silly questions. it.
Me:
a date
God:
Be more specific.
Me:
an appointment
God:
Be less specific.
Me:
okay i meetin
God:
Yeah okay, Thanks for the information: said meetin.
Me:
haha okay gotta go
God:
I'm glad you got a laugh out of it.
Me:
BYE BYE
God:
See you later. Adios.

it's so amusing.
robot. robot. robot.


omgomgomg.
i have a cut-off point at my ankles! my legs are so tanned whilst my feet are WHITE. gah! it's so ugly! damn it. should i get my feet sun-tanned? im just afraid that it will dry up my skin at that area, cos my calf is already very dry x( arghh

im making a banner or a board for Zhiyang :) just got the materials from Big Bookshop. heh. i cant wait! cant wait cant wait!! omgomgomg. lol.

ah! i feel like going out again.
grrrh.
damn that Ian didnt call me earlier.

okay maybe im going out.
haha. DONT CARE!


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this post is supposed to be up at around 3 plus in the afternoon. lol. oh well, i left the house before i did, so.. a late post! an uber late one lol. had fun laughing today with Ian, Kaixiang, Kenric, Joanne and her younger bro Joel. LOL. very very funny; Ian and Joel, lol! okay.. yeah i got nagged by my dad. gah. okay, nite!
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NEW HAIRCUT
yes, i cut my hair :)

nothing much of a change.
unless you come up to me and notice my small ponytail. hahaha. merely made it thin. heh, as usual. i like to keep my hairstyle. until when i get uber bored of it, then i'll make a drastic change to it lol.

ARGH.
i cant go out with Eelin, Ian, Kenric, Joanne and Richie today. awwww. i have to attend a birthday party later on. oh well, there is a next time! :)

i love the photo of me and Joel with the angelic props x)

RED TO BLACK
he's trying to get away.

Eelin's got back her phone!
yaye :)

im so happy! happy happy!
it's been like, at six months before i had ever played a real friendly baskteball match. haha. it feels so good to play it just now. i think i lost a few grams, i hope? lol. played with Benedict, YenSze and another malay guy which i forgot his name, and against Linette, Felicia, Kexian, WenQian and Hannah. my team won, of course! mwahaha :) however, apart from the long-lost happiness, i was rather off-course today. agh, i cant seem to shoot as well as before. eeek. at least i had fun. heh.

thanks, another 19 times to BengHong,
FOR THE BALL.

have an update on my Theory blog already :)

Ms Janet Tan was absent today! and what day is it today?
it's Thursday!
so what?
there was supposed to be two periods of Math and one period of TPI today! that means... we had up to 3 hours of free-time! hahaha. so damn cool.

what is homework doing to me?
haha. i love homework :D
i dont feel like going to SJAB tomorrow :(
grrrh~

if you had noticed the change in my facial condition recently, it's really bad right. very. i tried this new cosmetic to test if it's effective, ended up with my face being so allergic to it that it's making more volcanoes potrude from my skin. those volcanoes aren't pimples at all; they are just skin that's potruding! eeeek and it's making my face so rough. argh!! this sucks. maybe my recent stress added to its misery as well :( get well soon, dear face!

*think think*
*sniff sniff*
*S N E E Z E*

if you're feelin kinda mixed up,
just remember it's a mixed up world.
i think this to myself everyday.
it helps :)

and i think Fyo is a nice nickname for me, yah? :D

PILING UP UP UP
everything.

homework. ahh!
tests. AHH!!

dying. lol.

WELL DONE, BOYS!
basketball clementi town vs swiss cottage
50:37. im so glad :D
yaaaaaam-seng! lol.

that feeling is back again.
i dont know what to do now :/

im gonna get four tickets to MDC!
6th March, wheeets.
support Zhiyang okay! :)

i want new shoes.
i want a new bag.

had a really good chat and laughters with Eelin at her housr today. supposed to teach her Math but didnt do much of a help. i did my some of my homework there instead. heh :) what she said is true: my life now is so frikin boring. all i do nowadays are just homework, homework, homework. YES, that means im achieving my New year resolution! thats a good thing x) wheeets, im so happy that im changing. i dont even care about SC and St John that much anymore (omg, why?). dont ask me why, as i dont know either. i just feel like this. be disappointed in me if you must.

i just want a normal life.
i find myself sick of leading.
yeah, brainwashed.

its not fun to be person in the middle, you know. its not comfortable just even by looking or thinking about it. yes you may feel happy of the thought that you are the attention, but it could get too far, annoying.. scary.

its not fun sitting on the fence as well. you dont know what you want, thats when you start stressing about what to do next, and what's gonna happen. you need a decision but you cant seem to make it. maybe it will all be alright if you just let it go and think of other matters instead of this. yes, let it go :)

i feel carefree now.
i hope it can stay this way. i dont wish to involve myself voluntarily in anything big from now on. the Council? oh well, if im fated, i will still be in it. if im not, i wont.


okay, now homework, then...

AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL.

SO SCREWED UP

dumbass Ian. VEGETABLE.
he passed his annoying Bird Flu to me!
ahhh im stuck with this dumb sniffing and sneezing. grrrh. it's so irritating. my right nostril can't breathe; blocked, and for the whole day! thats very weird. okay im going to sneeze again, wait* okay back. right, anyway, it's Ian's fault! haha.
and i took like, 10 seconds to get off from the bus when i usually took less than 5. my bag got stuck in the clutched hands of Ian Chua Yi Wei. pity me! it's lucky that the bus door didnt close on me :)
that's pure bullshit i know.

hm.

i want Barak!!
im so-not gonna top the class for A-Math again without his help :( eeeeks. that Leong Aik is so irritating! ahh! Ms Tan is so dumb. bleh.

i just remembered why i got my place switched.

the reason is...
BULBUL!
eh, why the hell with Bulbul?

i was imitating Bulbul's voice while talking to Barak. poor Barak found it so-damn-uber-frikin funny that he kept laughing. when he laughed, i laughed as well. and so we got caught everytime we were making fun of Bulbul's voice. so finally, i guess Ms Tan is jealous that im so close with Barak that she seperated us so that she can admire him from the front from now on.
yeah. so dumb right.
ALL BECAUSE OF BULBUL('S VOICE)!

i miss Barakatullah! :)
correct spelling? heh :b


okay going to do the hardcore homework, then study,

then..

SLEEP.

*CENSORED*

YOU!
STOP, RIGHT THERE!


yes, see that?
those two anynomous people are telling you to do so.
why? what's the fuss all about?
okay, this post had been censored out due to some considerate and polite (and maybe selfish lol) reasons. it is done to prevent any of the people involved from being called out by the school OM and get suspended from school.
HAHA.

okay, im so influenced by today's CE lesson.


oooh wait, Ian's got something to say.

what's that, Ian?

sorry, we can't hear you. too bad.
and stop that silly smile of yours. (sounds familiar)
LOL.

okay, all crap.
basically, im just too lazy to blog about today, as there are loads to say (the rhyme wasn't intentional)! okay, since i can feel that some of you people are getting so curious, i shall let out some secrets. wheeets, aren't you happy :)
alrighty, so the main thing was *ahem*, *ahem*, *ahem* and me were at the Big *ahem* fooling around. you know, that *ahem* thing that we were fooling around, that's why it's replaced by the *ahem*s. and so we had fun.
not curious already right? see, how good i can be.
HEH HEH.

Ian and i exchanged cellphone pouches today. he claimed that "Fiona thinks that my pouch is very nice then she took it :(" hahaha, whatever! it's with me now :) heehee.
i sound very eccentric today. lol.

had a good time watching Unity Sec and Bukit Panjang Govt High boys play basketball today. Unity won! wooots x) my number 10 rules okay! saw Shawn's dumpling middle-finger today as well. he looks nice in glasses. lol, im not a fan of him anyway haha. JOSHUA is much better :D

dumbass.
terrible horrible VEGETABLE.

WE'RE CAPABLE AND LOVABLE, MAN!
xP


ah see, i told you this post is very CENSORED.

have a good night with nightmares :)

HEH IM GOING CRAZY.

VIDEOS!
hahaha.

i found that YouTube is so fun!
let me share some interesting videos i have :)
Enjoy!


CT Starwars.
Starring: Shimin, Brenda, Fiona, Daniel, JieDeng.
Sypnosis: Shimin and Brenda are fighting each other with rolled-up posters. Narrated by Daniel. Background laughter and effects by Fiona and of course the calafare, JieDeng.



Head & Shoulders Makes you HAPPY!
Starring: Anonymous and paper.
Sypnosis: An advertisement done in a creative and unique way. Just listen to the audio, cos there's something wrong with the audio and visual co-ordination here. hahaha.



I Say HEY!
Starring: Joanne's leg, Harshanal's voice, Fiona's cam.
Sypnosis: Playing around in the MRT. Harshanal made use of one of Russell Peter's lines "then you say Hey, I want that purse for $34.50, i say NO" and said something else. haha enjoy.



Fiona @ Cineleisure.
Starring: Fiona and Eelin's cam and voice.
Sypnosis: Dumb Eelin took a video of me without knowing and made me look like a fool. lol. but its funny though, haha :)




AND CHECK OUT THIS VIDEO :D
for the benefit for those who didnt do the maze, it's something lame to scare the hell out of you. hahaha. this video will look very funny to those who did the maze itself. haha! x)




sigh, i couldn't find Derek's videos. when i find them i'll upload them for your viewing pleasure, dont worry! hahaha :P

this is so random and dumb.
lol.

NEW LOOK
yup, new layout :)

was bored to death today. haha.

just came back not long ago, from a nice, sumptous dinner at Kitchener Road's Hillman Restaurant. yupp, you guys should go there and try out the Happy Beancurd and Paper-Wrapped Chicken. uber-nice! hahaha. im drooling by the thought of them x)

watched Fearless (Huo Yian Jia) at my grandparent's place. it's a very nice show, i just realised. i was annoyed by the number of people queueing up for that movie at the first place. i was thinking, "oh come on, it's only a movie by Jet Li." i know it's said to be his last movie, but the mob was a little like, too large? :/ haha. oh well, it's a really good movie i can say :)

quote from Fearless:
your biggest challenge, is yourself.

people had been coming up to me, asking me,
What is that Singapore Soka Assosciation thingy?
well well, i shall blog about it today :)
it's basically, my religion. yes, im a Buddhist. but why such a long and weird name? okay, i practice Nichiren Buddhism, so im a Nichiren Buddhist. it's originated from Japan. im not those common Buddhist that you see around praying to the Guanyin and dunno wat other thingos. that Buddhism is the one that you studied about during your lower secondary History, if you do remember; the one from India.
haha. back to the point, this Nichiren Buddhism religion may seem rather rare over here in Singapore. however, this small group of us makes up to at least 8-10 thousand over people from the whole of Singapore. there are already at least 2 thousand plus for the people of my age :)
dont be surprised, but our local artiste Jeff Wang, Hong Kong artiste Anita Yuen, and my oh-so-handsome-Prince-charming Orlando Bloom from the States, are of this religion too! XD
Soka, means 'value-creation'. we practice the principles and values of Buddhism and provide for the community. we learn to appreciate, respect and understand the way of people and life. hmm, profoundness. i dont really know how to explain much, but in my eyes, my religion is one of the best ones in the world :) people look at us and may think that we are free-thinkers. we dont have restrictions on any food or liquid we take, no restrictions of what we wear as well. we will just have weekly or monthly gatherings. cool eh :D
to come to think of it, there are around 7 people from CTSS are of this religion as well. that reminds me of the fun we had last year during our Youth Peace Culture Festival! haha. Jeremy, KimSeng, HoiYan, Javier, Leepeng and her brother. me as well, of course. all of us were so surprised when we met each other on the first day of practice! hahahaa. miss those days :)

im like advertising my religion. lol.
anyway, if you're interested, find me! x)

such a random post.
hope you like me new layout!
song is Pu Tong Peng You (Normal/Casual Friend)
by David Tao (Tao Zhe).
gooood night.

HMMM.
think think.

i just re-did my toe nails. ah, they look so much better now; trimmed and polished! hahaha. okay thats crap. in short, i just did a padicure myself. heh :)

im so happy that my phone is back!
people got irritated by me today. flaunting my phone with the wallpaper of Zhiyang that i made. hahaha. it was rather dumb but, i was laughing and enjoying it(!), while the others gave me that ._. face.. sigh :( haha, oh well, Zhiyang still rocks! lol x)
it's so sad, Eelin's phone dieded! it seemed that reincarnation took place lmao. nah, her phone just jammed up. something was wrong with the LCD screen. haha, get well soon, W900i! :P

the classroom situation today during Chemistry was outrageous. its obvious that the simple homework could be done, but at least half the class didnt do it. oh well, thats common for every one, but what really annoyed me was the way Albert talked to Mrs Yong. people thought that tearing his worksheet was her fault for having an attitude problem. however, i think that what she did was still alright. at least she didnt throw the torn worksheet at his face okay! she threw it right in the bin! if i were Mrs Yong i would have done the same. the way Albert talked to her was simply hurtful and annoying. to think there are people who thinks that he was so cool for doing that. God. the situation today was exactly like the scene in I Not Stupid Too; the teacher asks the students to get out, they get out, and the class is almost empty. to some other people out there, im not trying to act big, mature or whatever, but whatever happened during Chemistry lesson was simply very hurtful to a teacher. it's very disappointing for me to find out that people were not feeling bad about what they just did wrong.
i sound very kao-bei to some of you guys out there, i know. bash me up if you want, i dont care. but please inform me before doing so. And, spare my face and hair.
many thanks.

someone told me im writing blogging essays. okay, i dont wanna turn into YokeMun number 2! haha :) anyway, it's fun and it trains me. heh.

support YangCe, Adriano and Geraldine for
Campus Superstar revivals!
Kenneth too maybe :/
hahaha.

sayonaraa!

WHEEEEEE-!!

firstly, MY NOKIA 3230 IS BACK!!

secondly, I JUST HAD A NICE, LONG CONVERSATION WITH ZHIYANG X)

okay im off to sleep :)
NIGHT! XD

SO-IRRITATED
ahhhh-!

i dont like this restless feeling.
yes, it sucks.

it happens whenever im in a dilemma.
it happens whenever im nervous.
it happens whenever im confused.
it happens whenever its period.
its happening, all the above, now.

character education was fun today. hahaha. made me think about alotta stuff. oh well, i made the choice and i shall go with it! :) heh.

it's funny, how a human mind thinks.
so many things at once.
overflowing.
ahhh-!

and im still feeling restless. eeek!

anyway, so much had happened for the past few days. noticed a few changes in me as well. getting a little too hardworking for some of my ex-classmates to believe, mood-swinging so much that im scaring myself, and i find myself somehow doing weird things that i didnt think that i would before. the attitude and perspectives. hmmm i need a psychiatrist. haha :/

so funny talking to Dixie and Eelin just now.
Ian and Kenric were noisy as well.
hahaha :D

oh oh oh!
and benghong is so retarded. LOL.

byebye :P

WORDLESS

firstly, things didnt go as i anticipated for my valentine outing. however, at least i got to laugh. yeah so i went out with Kaixiang, Eelin, and Ian. shopped around Westmall and got each other some presents. thanks for the flower, Ian! haha. Kenric and Joanne came and went for awhile, yup. then the four of us walked and walked. met with some cock-ups, but it was all alright. then went to wait for our individual buses, all the way till 10pm. yes, it was late that night.

so here, i would like to thank these few people for the nice valentine presents. though some of yours were not the big and obvious ones, but it's the thought that counts :)

• EELIN; the bookmark :)
• Alethia; your card :)
• Vanessa; your lolli :)
• Damian; your bear & keychain :)
• BengHong; balloons, chocs & doggie :)
• SheauJyu; Hershey's Kiss! :)
• Kenric; the balloon :)
• Ian; the flower! :)

and of course..
Ms Tan; the balloon :)

did i miss out anyone? hope not :/
thanks all anyway!

im having mood swings recently.
here, i apologise to anyone whom i had offended in the past few days or weeks. please bear with me. i'm still getting used to the life of a Secondary 3. i may seem crazy, happy, upset, frustrated, joyful or even dazed at times. this is a warning, so dont be surprised.
sorry guys!

ooh, did i mention about my marks from the previous tests?
yeah i guess not.
okay, i failed my Physics. (OMG it couldn't be)
i topped my class for Chemistry with Huisu! (Yaye!)
i topped my class for A-Math! (full marks, Yaye!!)
Geography results ain't out yet.
and i dont know about my English essay yet.
and i think i'll fail my Chinese. lol.
E-Math Variations test coming this Friday, GAMBATTE :)

ah! i cant wait for 27th Feb!
SUPPORT ZHIYANG OKAY!!
:D

HAPPY VALENTINE'S!
wheeee.

yes, im very happy!
to think that i was feeling rather down earlier today :)
thanks Kaixiang and Zhiyang! x))
both of them brightened up my day.

oh, and not to forget,
out school beat Yuhua sec today!
you made my day too!
Darren, hope your leg is better now.
jiayou on Wednesday, guys! you can do it!

went to Bugis to shop for Valentine presents today. bought some only. just gonna make everything simple. and i have stuff for my class too! how good can i get, huh :)

im so elated--!!
cant study for Chinese already haha.
good luck to me too :P

nite, and
Happy VALENTINE'S Day!!
:D

SPEECHLESS.
wheeee-

receieved Ian's sms about 5plus in the evening, asking me if i wana go to the arcade. yup, so i met Ian and Kaixiang over there, then waited for Darren to come. dumb Ian and Kaixiang keep taking videos of me playing para. eeek! anyway, so Eelin and Shimin were arriving, then we left. the guys kept asking how far we had to walk to get to my house. when i told them it was two bus-stops away, Darren went "HUH?!"
my God, he got a BIG blister on his left sole. eew.
so that two jokers took turns to piggy-back poor Darren. lol. we took a really long time so by the time we arrived at my home, Eelin and Shimin were already sitting in my room. hahaha. Ian and Kaixiang ran for the fan when they entered my bedroom while Darren limped slowly to get a seat. awhile later, Darren went to the toilet to wash his wound (which he shouldn't have done) ouch. yeah so we waited for the guests to come in, and i have more red packets! wooots :D

and yes,
ZHIYANG CAME OVER LAST NIGHT!!
wheeeeeeee-

he looked abit different from what i saw on tv. haha. i think he's only 2-3cm taller than me? with the fact he's 17. ahhhh, he's just sooo cute!! haha. he started by asking about my school, my age. then we continued talking about the subjects we took in school. oh, and he and Shimin's sister's boyfriend are classmates for two years in Chinese High. cool. he also told me how scary fans can be. hahaha! there's some people who kept calling him, wanting to chat with him. all because someone accidentally gave that person his number. scary. yupp, and he told me that he cannot consume cold drinks as he has bad lungs. come, everyone go "awwwww~" heh. that's so sad! he can only consume drinks that are of room temperature, as long as it's not cold, or else he'll cough. sigh x(
he had to leave early! so started taking photos with him. wheee x) then we took a group photo with Ian, Kaixiang, Darren, Eelin, Shimin and Melissa. and then, HE SANG TO US!! i asked him to sing Er Shi Er by David Tao. the song he sang on the most recent episode of Campus Superstar. that song gained him the most points among the three males! he sounded great :) after the photo taking, i gave him a card with "Jiayou" and "Happy Valentine's Day" inside, along with my drawing of his name. heh. then, we exchanged numbers! wheee-
and so he went off already :(

then the rest of us teenagers cooped ourselves up in my room, crapping and laughing all night. KAIXIANG GOT DRUNK! my gosh, his whole face was red, he's smiling non-stop and spouting rubbish. lol, all the signs of a drunk person. hahaha! he's so cute please x) took a hell lot of photos as well. haha :D
Shimin went of early at around 10.30pm. dragged Kaixiang down with me cos im afraid of the dark. hahaha xP went back up to the room, crapped even more. Ian's fault! hahaha. chatted with Kaixiang as well. both of us including Darren were falling asleep when Ian, Eelin and Melissa were the active ones. it was as if they took too much caffeine lol. yes, we took alot alot alot of photos and group photos! funny ones! lmao.
when Eelin's dad arrived, all left. yup, that was.. nearing 2am? hahaha. wooots, we sure had a blast! yaye, and i sure enjoyed it alot alotssssss
XD

click for actual size.





Zhiyang's autographed photo! x)










ZHIYANG & ME!! :D










me and Shimin!









Eelin and me!









me and Kaixiang! x)










group photo, with Zhiyang! x)









wheeee- :)










what's that? haha! x)







more on friendster! heh.
IM SO HAPPY! x))

ATTENTION!!

Zhiyang & 19 other contestants are having a Roadshow @ Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza TODAY at 4 pm!
SUPPORT ZHIYANG AND WEAR BABY BLUE!

updates on yesterday on next post.
saty tuned!

HYPERVENTILATING
omigosh~

guess what?!
ZHIYANG'S COMING OVER TOMORROW!!
omgomgomgomg.
uber double-wooots! XD

i just want to get a picture taken with him.
just that simple photo x)

ahh, i simply love cute boys with braces!

im going really crazy already. i wasn't really in the good mood today, until this piece of news cheered my whole evening up!! heh. thanks daddy :) im too excited to think of anything else except of what will be happening tomorrow. haha.
it will be a potluck dinner. some small gathering of my mom and dad's friends. haha. i expect heiniken, food, laughter and crowd. gonna be a long night. everything starts from 7pm onwards. those people whom i've invited, you're lucky enough okay! better turn up! hahaha :b

played basketball in the rain today. so 'shiok'. hahaha. but the rain made the basketball so slippery and heavy that i only scored around 60% of the number of shots i did. eeek. hahaha. then watched a little of the football match; our school was competing with Poineer Sec. we won! haha. people said Poineer was the top in our zone, and our school team beat them! that's a great job, guys! :D

valentine's day is coming. yes, 4 days' time.
who's youre valentine?
who's mine?
getting a rose? a song dedication?
fourteenth february two thousand six :)

cant WAIT! xP
zhiyang. valentine's. both x)

WOOOTS, I DIEDED!
yes, i think.

basketball B boys.
clementi town v bukit batok.
we won, 47:23! wooots.

im gonna flunk my geog test!
there's english and chinese coming up.
wooots.

im going bonkers.
wooots!

and,
i didnt see Mrs Gan for the third time!
so dead, uber-wooots x(((

i got rammed by a soccer ball today. and i mean, rammed. at the abdomen, the whole of it was like numb for that few seconds. Harshanal did the kick. woah, he started sticking to me like glue super-glue after that! kept asking and repeating "are you okay?", "you need my help?", "im so sorry, i feel so bad" and he actually asked if he could walk me to the bus stop. ahhhh! freaky. i was actually terrified by him at that moment, lol. uber freaky.
i hope my abdomen is alright. that ram was rather hard and painful x(

im so afraid of Mr Murali.
he didnt blast me today though. but tml's the Forum at AVA room. i bet Mrs Gan and Mr Murali will be there. and i reckon that i'll be blasted there. argh, the thought of it makes me shiver.

my left hand has become crippled. it just cant stop trembling. maybe i hadn't touch a volleyball for a super long time. played volleyball just now with two juniors, Damian, YokeHwee, JunYang and Winnie. oh, i forgot to include the extra Bulbul, (and is Harshanal counted?) lol! after that watched the last half of the football match. then watched the basketball girls train. so funny! especially whenever Zhiyong takes over. the last practice, he said, "eh come, lemme teach you all some shit" hahaha! had a great time talking and laughing with Kaisi as well.

still, the bad thing is, i didnt see Mrs Gan.
ahhh!

i really admit im putting on weight. really serious this time. ahhhh! okay, gonna jog around Ivory Heights in the evenings already. i still have two months to go for the McRitchie run! x) it better be held this year. i love McRitchie runs. heh :)

yaye, my mom's gonna bring my phone for repair tomorrow! my dad didnt have the time to go as the phone has to go all the way to Causeway Point for the repair ._. yeah. oh well, good luck to my phone! i miss it sooo much. ooh anyway, my sms was 800 over for January lol. got pinched by my dad. woops, haha :b

so embarassing for me to yell that YES! during recess.
you girls didnt tell me! eeeek.

feeling very dazed.
why? i dunno =/

ya-man! lmao.

FILLED WITH THOUGHTS
too much of them.

im like so, fucking, dead.
i forgot to see Mrs Gan AGAIN!
dead. im dead tomorrow.
im so-gonna get blasted by Mr Murali.
argh!

what does a dumb fuck mean anyway?
not acting stupid but, there's no logical meaning! think about it.. unless you can come up with a very sensible explanation for me.
i'll be waiting.

i absolutely dislike hypocrites.
and especially, i dont like people, who has a problem with you but doesnt tell you right in the face, but instead they go around telling other people about what she/he fucking thinks so badly about you. in the end, you flare up will not believe it when the news eventually reached your ears. then, you'll be dying to know who the fuck did those awful things.
oh, no i shouldnt say you will be dying to know about it. as it's none of your business! just get on with your life and yeah, enjoy. no matter what the other people are talking about you, ignore those buggers. yes, that's how life should be.

my fave philosophy:
the eye chooses to see what is beautiful,
but the mind chooses to remember the ugly.

yes, and how true is that?
human always complain that they cant move on after something. it's all because they're stuck. because they didnt see the good side of things that are just right in front of them. instead, they kept thinking of the ugly, remembering it, and forgetting about the beautiful. why?
it's just human nature.
think about it, whenever you're considering something. you will find that most of the time you're thinking of the bad things that may happen and not the good things.

i feel so confused.
i feel like dropping my SC badge.
things are just not going well. i dont want the position, i really dont. now im so frikin forgetful for not going to see Mrs Gan twice! twice!! the thought of Mr Murali staring at me, blasting, is a really scary and bad thing. it brings me wrinkles and it makes me frown. i really feel like dropping it, just to lighten the load, lighten the load so that the others wont put so much pressure on me. it's suffocating and it SUCKS.
i feel like taking a big break.

st john, i really want to help but, you're just not working out the way i wanted it to be, alright? i feel like dropping it too. but my passion for it is too strong to let it go.

Mr Murali once asked if our CCA was more prior than SC. i would like to say, YES. even if you threaten to kick me out of the council, i'll still say YES. SJAB is like part of me. i dont feel the bond in SC much. i only have friends in there, not team-mates.

my mood swings are all caused by school, by SC.
why? all these wont have happened
if only i wasnt that outstanding.
if only i wasnt that big.
if only i was just an ordinary girl.

i have alot more to say but the words cant come out from my fingertips. i really feel like exploding. ahhh! wisdom shine on me, please.

yes, i ranted all.
im feeling a weeny bit better :)



tomorrow's PE.
yaye, Mr Loh! x)

oh and,
there's nothing between me and any other guys, okay. nope, no anyone. im Single and that's it. i dont care and dont mind what you people say behind my back. my conscience is super-uber-frikin-clear. thank you :)

geog and chem tests.
gambatte. night.

WHAT THE EFF
hey, what the fuck?

i cant switch on my phone!
oh gosh, i feel so empty.
my dad's gona kill me, yes he is.
eeeeek! x(
so people, i wont be answering any of ur calls and smses for these few days. sorry! :(

ah!
i forgot to see Mrs Gan today!
so dead lah. lol. im not interested in the posts anyway. and i still have to see her just to tell that. Gawd, what is this. there's dance practice tomorrow as well. gonna do the reflection thing for the sec1s and 2s. what the. i thought we're free already, BUT things are somehow just hiding somewhere and they'll just pop up anytime they want. wth.
im getting sick of almost everything.
i just want to study. like, omg. there's something really wrong with me. grrrh~ i dont care. i feel like dropping everything and concentrate on my studies! ahh~! going crazy.
exploding.

im so unlucky today.
i suddenly feel like im Garfield.
dots =/

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im down, back to the old Nokia 7250. bleh. and my N3230 is sent for repair. we couldn't find the warranty card! ahh! but my dad's gonna try his luck by bringing the tax invoice there in replacement of the warranty. hm, i hope it all works :(
im missing my phone already. boohoo*
argh, all my songs and photos.
especially my nice smses!! x(

anyway~
ZHIYANG RULES!! YES YES!!
Joshua is still my fave, but, ZHIYANG TOO!
SUPPORT HIM! M3!! :D
he is sooooo cute! I LOVE BRACES BOYS!
in fact, i find people with braces cute :b however, some people are an exception if they are not that cute in nature. heh. oh well, i said its nature! xP
im crazy :P
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BE MY FANTASY
its just a beautiful myth.

watched a few movies today, again.
it was rather surprising that there were pretty nice movies on Star World and HBO in the morning. hahaha. i watched Small Soldiers and Honey. Honey is a great movie, and that was the second time i watched it.
and oh, FYI, for the Youth Cultural Festival dance item that i took part in, the dance steps were from the movie! haha. it was rather weird when i found the dance steps very familiar. AND, the dance item by Hq1 used the song I Believe from the movie as well, while my HQ2 used a Korean song. heh. it's cool :)
Jessica Alba is so pretty. *envy*

then off i went to uncle Denise's house for some small gathering or something. just sit down talk talk those stuff. and then, we watched Flightplan, and The Myth! Flightplan is a very nice movie. alot of suspense. i wouldn't elborate much on it then :b
The Myth is sooo nice, so beautiful, yet funny and touching at the same time! the story was rather sad at the end. you wouldn't know whether to cry or smile. The Myth really emphasized on its movie title. it's so mystical and ancient, bringing us back to a fantasy in the ancient Qin dynasty. i dont know if there was such a thing that happened to the Qin Emperor though, haha. just one word, BEAUTIFUL :D

so much had happened.
no distractions, my dear girl. yes, none.
a sentence from Hilary Duff's The Getaway makes alot of sense to me: So hard to move on, cos everytime I think you're gone, you show up.
isnt it quite true to most of you girls out there?
yes, im very sure.
i dont know what to say now :/

and that amanda girl, sorry. okay?

tml's school. studies.
yes, my priority. and tests are on this week!
gambatte :) goodnight!

WHAT'S UP

i was idling away in my room when i stumbled upon some of my sister's magazines. one issue with my dear Orli! (Orlando Bloom) on the cover caught my eye, so i took it.

wow, guess what i found.

Who: Joshua Ang
Where: http://www.campusmoblog.com.sg/blog/nutzhen
Rating: Caution! May cause involuntary drooling in women;
2.5/5 stars.

Help! I Not Stupid Too star Joshua Ang needs a neurologist. Apparently he, in his own words, appears to be suffering from selective memory loss - symptoms include forgetting to update his blog. Yes, the man-child's online diary is sorely lacking in substance at the moment (there were only four entries at press time) and still needs some major tweaking but judging from the way he's blossomed from gawky kid to hunk-on-the-make, we reckon his blog just needs a little more time. Till then, you can check out pictures of his celeb friends and his brand new piano. You know what they say about a man who's good with his fingers...
- taken from January 2006 issue of L!ME.

Joshua, Joshua. hm, he just got that charm on him. at least the girls think so! haha. L!ME featured Xiaxue and Dawn Yang on that page too. in case you guys are wondering who the hell is Dawn, she's one of the hot babes that posed for the FHM magazine. so, HEY GUYS! interested for her web addy? beg me for it x) lol. it's hidden in this entry, just find it yourself.

okay, i AM fat.
please kill me.
im tempted to do a new skin.
blah! and homework's done :)

WHAT'S THE POINT
yeah, what's the friking point?

so suddenly, it's just so damn sudden,
that i feel so tired. so, very, tired.

it's like everything's crashing on me like nobody's business.
it's like im a cup with water overflowing.
it's like im so stressed up.
it's like i cant think.
it's like im confused.
it's like im so lost.
it's like shit.

first and foremost, schoolwork. yes, i know it's a typical Secondary 3's life. i expected it, but how can you expect me to anticipate teachers that dont teach? Mathematics is killing me. i love Math, but the teacher sucks is not good. telling us how to solve the question is different from teaching, okay. duh. and the homework is flooding like, what the hell. 12 questions on Simultaneous Equations? freak. i almost fainted after 2 and a half questions.
maybe im just sleepy.

secondly. CCA? yeah maybe. SJAB work (and problems) seem to be piling up too. Sec 1 recruitment? oh, dont ask me about it. hell. and what the freak, im in the Youth Affairs Department? grrrh. oh well, i cant control it anyway. we really have to work-out this year, seriously. the members are getting more and more slack and there are more people becoming MIA. St John rocks, but not this school's. i really hope for the best, and that is all i can do.
or am i just too much?

third. im nominated to be P or VP of the SC? Gawd, help me. how was i supposed to know i have to see Mrs Gan today? i was told that i was the only absent one and Mrs Gan's face was really black then. on top of that, i still have to see her on Monday. if she wants to blast me on Monday, im so-not going to take it in. no one informed me, so why blame me? im not eyeing and interested for those positions anyway. it'll just add on to my work, and my dad's nagging.
maybe im just disorganised.

fourth. personal life. i told myself to prioritise my schoolwork, no distractions to obstruct my path. i'd already let go a few of my beloved-s. but im still having the whirl in my head, why?
maybe im just thinking too much.

i just feel like sitting down,
stare into space,
and do nothing.
nothing at all.
i need time.
i need time to take a rest.
take a breather.
yes, a rest.

i felt offended, and i offended people. so, just to say Sorry if you people felt offended by me. there's something really wrong with me today.
maybe it's PMS.
and what's adding on to my misery is..
IM GETTING SO FRIKIN FAT! UGH!!
so just beware and dont provoke me these few days.
thank you so much.

thirty-four fifty!
i mean, thats 50 cents man.
5o cents alot of money!
later you go another shop you save another 50 cents, then you have 1 dollar! and then you go to the dollar store, you'll get something else!

click here for this video :D

goodnight.