When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day, another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

all emotional today..

i asked myself-
and,
i really like him with all my heart.
its juz tt, we cant be together;
for now, i hope-

thrashed 'em all out.
i feel really good.

death-
is just anutha path one must take..

kaikai's bdae.
kinda boring laaz this yr's..
cos no games to play.
blehhs.
kaikai's pic wun be up so soon tho..
cos mel gonna use tha digicam in tha zoo .
haharx-
sheesh gotta pack bag now.
just finished doing my
minced chicken fer tml's HE practical.
woah.. and my minced chicken meat is..
really minced --
l0lx.
more specifically,
very very minced.
no big pieces of chicken, all minced .
that sounds yummy- mmm..
hahaxx !!
hehs kaezz nitees- ((x

since you've been gone
i can breathe for e first time
thanks to you now i get
what i want..
worthwaitingforyouliifessuckstepindanameoflove.

class t designs class t designs class t designs!
grrh drivin me crazy
but i got them done already aniwae.
yupp.
tml gonna buy stuff for HE practical-
then goin to bdae party
kaikai's ! ((x
so chubby so cute.
if i can, i'll get his pic up ^-^b

if u hate me so much tell it right to my face
dumbass cowards-

anutha winter day
has come n gone away
in paris or rome
i wanna go home
let me go home..

whew-
sports heats todae.
sian arr got last for 200m ))x
well, my class boys got 3rd for 4x400m
congratss- (x
kaozz- !
our girls 4x100m become 4x400m !!
donno wad e hell lor
liew eh im gonna kill xinli-
haizz more problems nowadays..
from school to personal .
shit siaax.. suay kia-
gonna thrash it all out on monday.
cannot tahan le
gabriel is cute wad..
hahahax..
can run also nehss..
why sae he act cool ?
l0lx-
heeheex. ^-^b

stupidcupidstoppickinonme.
youaredrivinmereallycrazy.
imconfusedidonnowadtodo.
afraidofanuthabrokenheart;
afraidofanuthastrainedrela.
stupidcupidplsstoppickinonme-

byess- ((:

HAKKAI --!!
this tangerine is sooo sour!!

saiyuki reload book4 english version!!
i got it!! x))
heehee-
GOKU is damn kyoooot !! xD
awww.. lols.

jason weiwen suhyee n me
go to the street soccer court near my area play
meet shawn n darrell there.
then play lor.
i went home awhile to take bball
and change shirt.
hee-
shiok sia.
shoot alot, did kind a workout. (:
play till drizzling le then all go.
haizz shawn lost his specs.. ):
hope he can find them ..
cos he sae maybe left on bus. )x
then walked jason to the bus stop,
go home!
got a cold shower. wahhhss..
hehs.

saiyuki simply rawwks mah sockss-!!

darlin save the last dance for me..

note; quite long entry. hahazz (x

nnttl - nehnehtuatualiap!
nnssl - nehnehsiewsiewliap!
nnbb - nehnehberibig! (not nanabeibei-)
whahahaz
john made all this up.
more? got..
'L' sign:
lame; loser; lau mai kai; lormee; laksa!!
siao l0lx-!
hahahax..

whee todae bball training..
the drills were quite good ((:
lol gabriel is cute!
xiuying and i same! heez ((x
jersey7.. 4d1? hahax.
din noe he was sec4.
size don look like haharzz-
beri slim. lolss.
he looks shy and quiet, donno real anot haha.
blehhs.
hahaz leonard show attitude to eelin.
she angry whahahaz.
call him si tai jian (dead enuch) LOL
cos when brenda pass him back the bball..
she accidentally hit that area, l0lx-!!
he so bao li, push e bball cage
until one wheel broke and came out.
hahaha!
- - -
aiya laughed alot todae hahaha.
at mac took all of mingyang's chilli sauces..
i pity him la so giv him back lor..
but not lidat giv so easily.
i called him, then "mali mali hooong!"
throw back the sauces at him-
l0lx! i laughed not bcos its funny.
cos after i did that, brenda laughed; real hard.
and u guys know how deadly is her laughter.
LOL-

rajini heard 'very cute' as 'vaccum'
when she noes its 'very cute', she "oh.."
then tresha made the vaccum sound effect. (haha!!)
told tresha n rajini abt nnttl, nnssl and nnbb.
tresha laugh and laugh..
i sae rajini nnttl (hahaha-)
when i told her the meanin
she went "oh yeaa.."
LMAO-!!

"mrsss-s-s....... u don force me ah.."
said by who ar, find out urselves lol.
he damn cute de l0lx-

blehhs feels so good to be single n free (:
juz watch him from far, i smile.
hees. its better like this.

woah.. laughed too much..
hee. byess ((x

birds flyin high
you know how i feel
im feelin good..

went to shawn's house todae
mayfair.
whahaz.
at first play daidi in his room
sian le then went downstairs.
swimmin pool area-
e boys go play soccer.
we girls play water lol
ended up everyone got all wet
except shawn and yungyen
haharxx- !!
me shimin eelin
bryan teckee darrell
all got wet.
whahahaz shiok sia
c-c-c-c-coldd ..
lolss
then lompang taxi back
hahahax!
teckee pay nehz..
lotsa thankss to him mann-
hehss.
- - -
xtra-story;;-

forgot. dunno.
these two words
so familiar yea?
sure, these are e words boys usually
use on us, girls.
they dont know how it feels
when girls see or hear those words.
they dont know how important
a specific answer is.
they dont know how much it hurts.
the words give girls
misunderstanding of the boys' intentions;
resulting in quarrels, fights, breakups.
unconfirmed -important- answers.
forgot. dunno.
im not talking abt casual chats.
im talking abt serious matters.
cos of these two words,
girls had been broken.
wont guys just at least TRY
to understand us girls?


byess ((:

ive been keepin all the letters
that i wrote to you
in each were a line or two
im fine baby how are you..

continue of the previous story; 6feb'05

she is no more confused
no longer lost
she gave up on the boys
she is now free-
she'd neva felt so carefree since..
she wanna cherish it.
but she sensed a cupid arrow on its way
uh oh.
now what?
she cant get things straight again.
arghhzz!!

blehhs.. hMm..
to be continued...

feels gd to be hugged;
all your troubles gone.

light out, nitess (x

darlin dont u noe i love u so
cant u feel it when we touch..

wheeeee-- !!
got mah mp3! xD
v200 512mb.
219bucks onli siaaz.
from 279bucks cut until lidat-
nicee..
heehee ^-^
got lotsa songs in there already.
hMmx..
oh ya, got a pair of OP slippers too.
bluue-
heex.
mel's got herself an OP pencilbox and bag!
arghh. haharxx..
blehhs.
nth much now anyway..

im sleepy, nitess ((:

michael buble's cute
michael buble's sexy
michael buble simply rawkss.

wheehees.
took studio shots todae.
still okae lahz..
im waitin till e day taking formal shots.
todae's are casual ones.
cos mom got coupon for free shots
haharx..
yeass.
and-
michael buble rox!!
xD i wanna get his latest album It's Time
gawwd he really do rock my world
with his jazz--

tell me when will you be mine
tell me quando quando quando
when will you say yes to me
tell me quando quando quando..
-quando quando quando

its a new dawn
its a new day
its a new life
for me
and im feelin good..
-feeling good

another winter day
has come and gone away
in either paris or rome
and i wanna go home
let me go home..
-home

dont forget whos takin you home
and in whose arms you're gonna be
so darlin save the last dance for me..
-save the last dance for me

seeyarx ((:

for the first time tryin out;-
rants scribbled on paper..

NOTE: PARENTAL GUIDANCE- explicit language.


click for full-size.

^ scribbledbyxane19feb05 ^

the scribbles- not in order;-

thetroubledmind-
canidie??
fucktardseverywhere
failure!!
whycantlifebeperfect??
getthefuckinghellouttamyfaceouttamyhead!!
yousuckisuckeveryonedoes.
fuckingnabeicheebyelanjiaopeople-
getalifegotalifelostthelife
retardedpeopleallovertheplace!!
angryoverwhat??this!
idioticpig
ilosttotimeagain
fuckingretards
foolishgirls
promisebroken--
whycantboysjustgivein??!
boysaresuchnuisance!!
hurt
theartistisgoingnowhere
stupidfucktards-
music
graffittiartsts?!pui.x--
angerconfusionfillsme-
dontunderstandmeatall!!
heartsshattered--
frustrationsss
ijustwannalive-
scribblesss
boyswillbeboys
lovehurts
breakingheartseverytime
reallyaprincessnolonger--
jinx
canttheyjustatleasttrytounderstandusgirls??
likeme.
failureinrelationships
perfectworld??--impossible!!
whatthehellfuckofflahcheebye!!
confusion-
agreedonpaperdeclinedinreality

lost count.
go find urselves.
whew feels so good
writing everythin on paper-
aittez seeyax ((:

tired

free..

grrr-
internet down fer the past few daes.
damit
cannot use comp so toturing )x
haharx..

17feb'05;-
got great laugh from the horny freaks;
jeremy and paul
really laugh until like siao
i laugh till face red sias.
paul also l0lx-
thn shimin xtra say:
nuclear plus nuclear equals? BOOM!
whahahahax!!
haha they damn cute siaax..

basketball rox (:

is there anyone out there
cos its gettin harder n harder to breathe..

toopid bus!
brake move brake move brake move brake-
liew eh cannot even doze for a second!
as if the brake so nice to play lidat lor
i close eyes for donno 2 secs then -brake!!
sians sia wanna sleep also cannot
grrr.

nothing much todae..
blehhs.
so sian, no homework
haha but can relax- (x
hee.

-thumpin thumpin-
didanothercupidarrowgetmeagain
damnamithinkingtherightway-

i can show u the world
shining shimmering splendid
tell me princess
now when did u last let ur heart decide..

whahahahax
cant stop laughing
funny brother sister
richie and rachel mui
lol
he call rachel mad woman
whahahax!!
so cute siaa.

wee valentine's day.
also prefects investiture
heehee.
its actually nice wearin the prefect's badge
i didnt even expect to have a chance to
i tot only guai gias get the job
but now, dun think so.
darren guai gia?
lol no! =x haharx-
anywae.. im a prefect already (:
wish me luck.
cos i gotta handle 2 more ccas..
x( blehh.

well, byess (:

since you've been gone
i can breathe for the first time
im so movin on yeaahh
thanks to you
now i get what i want...

waahoo!
378bucks fer cny-
however..
EXcluding my money frm gambling,
and extras-
whahahax. x)
i get ta keep da money ^^
heehee can buy lotsa stuff--
haha kae la dun spend anyhow..
hMmx.. anymore?
dunno. hehs

byess (:

sounds of music..

ooh
it turned out that
shimin brenda eelin ben and raphael came
hahaha
more people better
hee.

had PI rehearsal ytd morning
then went back home wit shimin
then changed at my house
woah went back damn crowded sia
didnt even know there were so many
hahax.
we ate, then lion dance came
we went outside walk walk awhile play at e swings
eelin called me sae reaching le; on 198
more, ben and raphael on e same bus
l0lx!
hahax nice one.
bus arrived le then go open side gate lo.
brenda alighted the next bus- 66
so 'zun haha
then 'escort my 'guests to my house
before that ben n raphael played e swings
l0lx.
had enough; go up.
whahahax e girls eat so little
but e boys ate two rounds-
hahaz.
after eating then played poker in my room
play until 3+ then they go le
shimin brenda go heeren
ben and raphael go sentosa - -'ll
l0lx they really nth to do.
grrr too bad i cannot go out
cos got more people comin
if not can hang out le.. haix
eelin stayed put
'cos heeren too far' - -'ll
dotss.. but nbm lor.
then we went outside to gamble blackjack
hahaharx!! with..
dad, uncle, 2aunties, godpa, younger cousin
l0lx- shiok siaz.
i won 28bucks after around 1-2hrs.
but eelin left early neber win much..
aww.... hehs.
hahahax but fun sehs =P

but night is really -great.
whiskey + greentea
heiniken + sprite
whiskey + sprite
woah sheeeok~
hahaha drink too much alcohol
9plus i drowsy liao l0lx!

use computer damn 'du lan
use awhile then dunno why restart itself
puix.
now ok liao.. haha.

had a great nite, how bout u guys? xD
hee. seeyax-

ni3 hao3 du2
ni3 hao3 du2
ni3 hao3 du2-u-u-u-uu..

tired of all tha shiit
needa rest.
tml got prefects investiture rehearsal
then gotta rush home fer party..
arghss..
shimin ben and raphael comin onli..
blehhs so little..
but alright lar.
hahax.

seeyax

dont understand why
ppl just wanna spoil other's
new year's festive spirit.
are those really so sadistic?

yeaa, i think so.

u just dont wanna live in the past,
in the painful memories.
i wud rather live life now.
stupid people; those hu hav no brains to think,
got the picture?
ithinknot
cos u dont hav enough brains to think abt it
yeayoudont

westwoodians? ok, you're all noted.

fucktards

how does it feel to know
you'll neva hav to be alone
when you get home..

damn bloated
wahh so sleepy-
sian ang bao money lesser than last yr's..
haiz.
but tmr still goin out
means more coming (:
hahaha
kkaex la crappss

nitex (x

its written in the stars..

yo check this out; click

burp
steamboat was nice
longan nicer - lol
ate at least 2 cupfuls
damn i cant burp
haiz.. failure. x(
ytd net was down - argh!
now its ok (:
wahh so full

feelin more carefree now
i have friends by my side (:
maybe i shud enjoy the life of singlehood
fer now. hee

damn full
lame shit lol

in the perfect world
you'd still be here..

he- liked her
she rejected him-
she likes `him instead
`he ignores her, almost
she turns to him-
now, he- likes anutha
she is lost right now
in tha loneliness.
shuld she stay lonely like this,
or turn back to `him?

what a complex story; yeaa.
people, can answer the question?

lost.

in a perfect world
this wuld neva happen..

i dont know what im doing
i keep drawing and drawing;
not my homework instead
i just keep drawing.
sighx..
a bad new year?
i hope not..

i need enlightment.

lights out; nitez.

nothingg.. nothing..
nothingg hurts like love.

fine i'm now neutral.
i cant handle it anymore

im losing trust in boys

which is the wrong path i took;
what did i do;
where did i go wrong;
who are the wrongg people i chose before;
to end up here like this

really
nothing hurts like love

listenin to maroon5 cd.
shud noe how im feelin now..
yea.

was quite upset todae.
wanted u to acc me awhile..
but u excused urself.
i dont noe if u're tellin e truth..
if u are, k fine im sorry to get in ur way..
but if u're not.. ignts.
cos i just wanted someone whom i can talk to
who can just acc me for just a little while..

really really confused
yea really.
i hav a feelin that im hua xin.
i dun wanna feel that way
i wanna be the normal me
i wanna know what i really want;-
and need.

soccer cts vs swisscottage 1:1

- - x x - -

A Fool Like Me
Spiking out in a unique style
Your hair attracts my gaze
Miles and miles, all this while
Don't you feel my pain

I am such a fool
To fall in love with you
You're just too good to be true
And now I can't let go of you

What's your charm
What's your spell
Or am I just so dumb
To fall into love's deep well

I can't bring myself to hate you
Neither to love
Tell me what am I supposed to do
I need an answer from above

Are we meant to be
Tell me, I wanna know
xxxxx, can't you see
I love you but I just couldn't show

In your heart, I may be nothing
It's alright
If you're hurt inside
Remember, I'll always be by your side
- - -
I Want To Know
When it spins, when it swirls
When it twirls, when it whirls
I'll be there for you

The night sky, ever so dark
But there's a spark, in my heart
A light for me and you

Straw hearts, straw stars
In love letters from both of us
Do you think it's possible

Months of pain
Drops of rain
I still love you

I just want to know
If you feel the same way
I do for you, for me
- - -
Lost
Torn into two
My heart bleeds in silence
How did I end up
In this world of darkness

Fear overcomes me
Fear of making mistakes
One wrong step
May lead me to heartaches

Are we fated
Are we not
Destiny just couldn't be trusted

I couldn't hate you
Neither could I love
What am I supposed to do

Tell me, cos I'm lost

- - x x - -

new poems will be put up at my poems.
as for the songs, i'll think about it.

see-yass.

i feel horrible.
im thinkin things
that are impossible.
terrible.

valentines.
who what.
i dont know.

hks thrashed cck with a score
48:13
wows.. hahax.
congrats to them..
raphael dunno why play halfway then bai-ka..
hahaz.. :P
before match start he go toilet
then dunno why stay in toilet so long
dunno wad he doing
then eL say he in toilet kek-sai LOL
hahahaha kkkaex shhh.. x)

not so crazy over u anymore.

poems done.
will be up soon.. i guess.

movie;-
harry potter and the goblet of fire !!
due - november 2005

robert pattinson is sexy-
i wanna see him in gof quick;
the new cedric diggory.

katie leung has good looks-
hope she does well as cho chang (:

james and oliver phelps are just sooo cute!
i wanna pinch their faces ^-^
i wanna see the weasley twins again.

tom felton is back again with his sexy stare-
wanna see him again as the attractive draco malfoy.

rupert grint! oooh cutie guyy~
ronald weasley with red hair again! ^^

ooohh and my darling daniel radcliffe is back (:
miss him sooo much~
harry potter comes back to the 4th year in hogwarts!

harry potter and the
half blood prince
due - July 2005

- - x x - -

27:26
we lost to tw
by 1 point !!!
x(
it was a really sad scene.

tml hks vs cck.
whoo i wanna watch.
^^
aittex.. hope the bballers wud cheer up..

byess (: